..UI

Alwin masuk UI tekhnik komputer. Gue speechless aja gitu

Bete

How sad, I still can't get over him after 2 months. I really have to get over him. He used to be so kind, nice, sweet, and care. But now, he's turning to be a selfish one. Ganjen pula. And he's also rude.

Ah shit. Mati kek lu buruan
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Alwin harus bener-bener dihapus dari kehidupan gue. Oke. Dadah. Be kind dong win. At least if you still call me 'friend'. Ga sopan banget sih, udah ga nepatin janji, trs ngasih bukunya ga sopan. Ah tau dah. Daaah alwin. Semoga cepet dapet pacar baru ya yang bohay kaya aura kasih tapi ga ada otaknya.

..GOHB!

created by : me

..YIPEE

Yesterday was like AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH. Met my friends and met Alwin of course. He dropped me at Adin's house after the show. THANKS GOD! :D can't stop smiling and got a fantastic dream too :D

..FAKE

I got this problem. The biggest one for my entire life. Break up. I know, it's been more than a month. But, I just don't feel this is right. I know he doesn't love me. But, still. It's hard to accept. When I was a bit younger, it's okay to accept that the one that I love, does not love me in return. Because we don't have any serious relationship before. But, this just different. He promised me a lot and he did not keep his promises. Sad :'(

Aduh, rasanya pengen gue tagihin semua janjinya di depan mukanya. But I don't have a strenght to. What'd I do then?

He told me reasons, and I just can't stand to hear it. Cause they're all just too fake.

Nyesel banget ngeliat foto-foto di facebook :(

..I LOVE YOU

It's been 49 days after we break up, but I still can't get over you. In fact, I'm crying now :'( I miss us. Last night, when I looked into your eyes I feel different. I know that you don't love me anymore and it hurts.

Selalu deh kalo gue pengen nulis, pas udah create a new post langsung bingung mau ngetik apa. Argh, I love you win :''''''(

..THE GIRLS WAS SCREAMING THEIR NAME

Gue masih shock O.o
Beneran
Ga boong

I was waiting for my mom to picked me up after I had my English course. And then, there was a girl who ran to a boy on a motorcycle. And the girl was shouting like this "Gue minta pertanggung jawaban lo. Pokoknya sampe sekarang gue belom dapet. Lo harus tanggung jawab." Don't know why gue kepikiran sampe sekarang -_-" agak gak penting ya. Tapi horror aja gitu tiba-tiba dia ngomong gitu. Dan mereka berdua berantem loh. Serem. Gue nggak ngerti deh apa yang mereka omongin. Takut O.o

By the way, hari ini sekolah gue rame banget! Gimana ga? Samuel Rizal (Adhit on Eiffel I'm in Love movie) came to my school and played basketball with 21 team. And also there's a man (Fano on Nikita sinetron hehe) who joined to played basketball. Ya sekolah gue geger lah, yang cewe-cewe pada heboh. Kocak deh :3

Hmmm... Gitu deh pokoknya hari ini. Freak -_-"

..SO IT MUST BE LOVE

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Posting so much today. I miss the old times. Really. 10000000% obviously yes.
You don't know what you get until you loose it.
Did I lose you or did you lose me?
This is makin' my head feels dizzy -_-"

..HELLOGOODBYE

Whisper hello, I miss you quite terribly...

-Hellogoodybe (lupa judulnya apa)

..EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

Seperti judul blog gue, gue harus percaya kalo semua terjadi untuk suatu alasan. Wheter it's good or not. Gue putus cinta juga karena suatu alasan. Alasannya Alwin sih katanya "ntar kamu bawel nyuruh-nyuruh aku pulang, ntar kamu jealousan gak jelas lagi". Hmmm... gue sih bingung ya sama alesannya. Secara dia belom tau gitu bakalan kejadian kaya gitu, dan juga dia ngga megang omongannya gitu bakalan baik-baik aja walaupun LDR sama gue. Yahelah, Bandung doang. Sama rumah gue 1 jam doang. Kalo emang udah ga sayang ya baru itu lain. Sedih gak sih lo jadi gue? Gue pengen lupain semuanya. Gue gak pengen terlalu sedih jadi orang. Tapi gimana dong, ini susah banget :(

Then, Alwin akan jadian sama orang baru cepat atau lambat. Trus ntar masalah lagi, sama aja masalahnya. Putus lagi. Wuakakaka seneng gua. No offense ya, gue tetep manusia. Jadi segala kekurangannya maklumin aja. Someday you'll know that I was the one for you. Anjir pede banget. Bodo amat. Gue denger dari "Someday We'll Know" -nya Mandy Moore ft Justin Foreman kalo gasalah.

Tadi pagi gue baca tweet-an nya Pandji (twitter.com/pandji) sebelum dia tidur.
Dan seperti ini isinya
"Before I sleep: its okay to keep thinkin about your lost love. You cant get over em in a week or two when you've been loving em for years"

You know what, gue ngerasa semua yang lewat itu terlalu precious. Kenapa sih orang-orang seneng banget ngelupain? Gue sampe sekarang belom kepengen ngelupain Alwin, cuma menghilangkan rasa sayang aja. Parah banget kalo dilupain, selama 16 bulan 2 minggu itu tiap hari dilaluin dengan penuh perjuangan. Yang Alwin sakit, gue nyamperin ke rumahnya dan end up pulang naik taksi sendiri malem-malem dari gading ke bekasi. Yang gue sakit, eh Alwin gakpernah jenguk deng. Yang waktu 7 bulanan, dia kerumah gue cuma buat ngasih surat gara-gara gue gak ada dirumah lagi pergi beli makanan. Secara rumah gue sama dia tanjung priok ke bekasi. Perjuangan kan? Tapi kok lo mau ngelupain sih win? Gue bingung -_-

Semua yang terjadi
Pasti ada alesannya
Gue cuma gak tau kenapa
Gue harus cari tau

(gue ga konsekuen abis, diatas ngom mau lupain, bawahnya gamau lupain)

..1001 THINGS

Ini lagu buat Cathy Sharon dari Kevin Aprilio. I don't like Kevin nor Cathy. Tapi gue suka lagunya. Gimana dong? Hehehe.

Frans baru pulang dari rumah gue, pengen deh ngebuat 1001 things to do before I die. Dia udah bikin. Udah 300-an gitu. Sumpah gue juga pengen banget bikin kaya gituan. Isinya yang seru-seru. Trus gue tulis progresnya di blog. Semoga ada yang mau baca hehe. Ntar yang baca kasih masukkan ya. Biar gue bisa koreksi juga gitu. Sumpah itu pasti seru banget. Mari kita mulai sekarang.

10 hal pertama

1. Masuk TK
2. Masuk SD
3. Masuk SMP
4. Masuk SMA
5. Masuk kuliah
6. Dapet kerjaan
7. Dapet gaji pertama
8. Naik pangkat
9. Bikin lapangan usaha
10. Beli rumah sendiri

Nomer 1-4 udah terlaksana. Gue mah buat yang simpel simpel aja dulu. Orang masih ada 991 lagi kok hehe.

Eh gue baru sadar masa, gue hari ini 1 tahun 6 bulan sama Alwin kalo masih jadian wuakakaka lama ya win? Sayang udah putus. Nyesel dong lo wuakakaka canda

..JIBBITZ

Gimana sih caranya bikin post itu bermakna? Sumpah ya nggak ada yang penting dari apa yang gue tulis disini. Gue pengen gitu bikin sesuatu yang bisa jadi inspirasi buat semua orang. Tapi ini terlalu 'nothing'. Sedih banget sih jadi gue huhuhu.

Hey, lo tau gak sih? Gue masih sedih. Gue tau gue menyedihkan banget. Putus cinta gitu aja masih sedih sebulan lebih. Kampungan? You may say that way. Tapi gue seperti lagu yang gue dengerin ini "Aku tak bisa ke lain hati". Hahahahaha. Buat yang pernah baca blog gue yang lama yang dengan tololnya keapus pasti tau deh gimana Alwin (my ex) berharga banget buat gue. Masih ada beberapa post di musicboxmachine.wordpress.com. Sekarang sih gue masih sayang banget, tapi gue udah biasa aja menanggapinya. Tapi gue masih bengong bengong gitu haha kampung abis. Sumpah gue malu.

Gue..................kangen dicintai. Hahaahaha. Iya gue kangen ada orang yang sayang sama gue dengan tulus. Orang yang bersedia ngebahagiain gue. Orang yang tiba-tiba sms gue. Orang yang tiba-tiba nelfon gue. Hahahaha sangat menyenangkan dicintai seseorang ya. Iya tuh dulu gue suka banget nelfon si itu tuh cuma ngom "Aku sayang kamu" trus gue matiin. Hahahaha. Zaman dulu sangat membahagiakan ya? Zaman smp gue juga membahagiakan, kan zaman dulu tuh.

Eh sumpah ya kalo gue ngomongin masa lalu mulu kapan majunya?

Eh gue pengen ngubah kamar gue deh. Biar lebih asoy gitu gimana ya, biar lebih cozy. Ada yang tau artinya cozy? Gue sih nggak. Hahahaha gue jadi bego nih lama gak mikir. Kesian deh ica. Kamar gue kan kecil nih ya, tapi biar lebih nyaman gimana sih caranya? Tapi gue maunya semua ada di kamar gue. Komputer, tv, laptop, ps, dvd, lemari baju, lemari buku, tempat tidur, dll. Sekarang sih semua barang itu udah masuk tapi kamar gue menjadi.............sumpek. Mana catnya pink sama kuning. Dimas bilang kamar gue kaya eskrim. Inget Dimas, inget masa lalu. Hahahaha salah lagi.

Gue tiba tiba inget ulangtahun gue tahun 2008. It was the coolest birthday ever!!!!!!!!! Udah ah jangan diinget, tar nangis gua.

Hmmm, bingung mau nulis apa lagi. Eh gue beli kacamata Fendi! Baru loh baru! Seneng geela! Tumben dibeliin yang mahal. Biasanya yang mangdu punya 300rban. Eh ini 930rb di Optik Seis. Seneng lah gue. Diskon gitu ceritanya. Tadinya 3juta. Diskon jadi segitu. Lumayan yaaaaaaa? Seneng deh. Ah udah ah. Eh iya satu lagi. Tadi beli jibbitz 13ribu di metro. Besok mau beli lagi ah yang banyak. Bahagia gue. Hehehehe. Sudah dulu ya. Bye bye.

Sincerely,
Ellya xoxo

..BEDREST

I'm sick people. I need to stay on bed 24 hours a day. But surprisingly, I don't feel very bored. I'm enjoying my times on my bed ha ha!

I'm on the mood on writing
Something
That really
Bothers me
For a month!

Yeah, that broke up thingy still on my mind

I'm thinking of it whatever I do, whenever I lay down on my bed
And I always thinking of it when I wanna go sleep
If only I could hope that we could go back
But, I'm too afraid to wish

I still don't know why
You haven't gave me a reason

Semoga besok gue nggak harus dirawat dirumah sakit, pray for me peeps. Kena gejala dbd nih huhu

..PAST

I've changed some things on my blog, I just want to keep it simple. Honestly, I feel very sleepy now, but I also in the mood of typing something. Today, I watched Ice Age 3 with my cousin. It was very fun, I laughed a lot, but I was sleepy hahaha. Because I didn't have much sleep time last night. I slept at 2 am and woke up at eight. 6 hours! I'd have 8 hours at least a day. And then, here I am now, still on the line and haven't decided yet when I have to go to sleep.

Actually, I'm still on the same problem, but hell yeah, past is the past. I can't live with that, but I have to learn from it. Learn learn learn. That nobody can stays right beside you everyday and everynight. I also have to learn that the one that you love the most maybe isn't the one that suits you the most. I have to accept all this things. It hurts. So deep. But yeah, we are what we repeatedly do. So I can't cry every day, every second, because I'm not that kind of person. I love to laugh. I miss my laughters. I'm happy and cheerfull!

I'm trying to come back as who I was