<3<3<3

I loved you once
and I won't regret
You loved me once
and you won't forget

I won't bite
I just want to kiss
Because I miss

The simplest song

I'm not a musician who can make a song a day

I ain't a supermodel who looks great on every condition

Nor an actrees who can hide my tears for a smile



This is me, as simple as it shoud be

I'm fine to be huge or even tiny

I'm okay to be geek when I want to be popular

I got no thousand friends on my facebook's friends list

Even I don't know how to activate my myspace account



I'm listening to music not making them

I'm reading to magazine not writing them

I'm watching movie not playing them



I'm not a dancer but I'm jaming all the way

I'm not a lover but I love you all the way



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..EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

Seperti judul blog gue, gue harus percaya kalo semua terjadi untuk suatu alasan. Wheter it's good or not. Gue putus cinta juga karena suatu alasan. Alasannya Alwin sih katanya "ntar kamu bawel nyuruh-nyuruh aku pulang, ntar kamu jealousan gak jelas lagi". Hmmm... gue sih bingung ya sama alesannya. Secara dia belom tau gitu bakalan kejadian kaya gitu, dan juga dia ngga megang omongannya gitu bakalan baik-baik aja walaupun LDR sama gue. Yahelah, Bandung doang. Sama rumah gue 1 jam doang. Kalo emang udah ga sayang ya baru itu lain. Sedih gak sih lo jadi gue? Gue pengen lupain semuanya. Gue gak pengen terlalu sedih jadi orang. Tapi gimana dong, ini susah banget :(

Then, Alwin akan jadian sama orang baru cepat atau lambat. Trus ntar masalah lagi, sama aja masalahnya. Putus lagi. Wuakakaka seneng gua. No offense ya, gue tetep manusia. Jadi segala kekurangannya maklumin aja. Someday you'll know that I was the one for you. Anjir pede banget. Bodo amat. Gue denger dari "Someday We'll Know" -nya Mandy Moore ft Justin Foreman kalo gasalah.

Tadi pagi gue baca tweet-an nya Pandji (twitter.com/pandji) sebelum dia tidur.
Dan seperti ini isinya
"Before I sleep: its okay to keep thinkin about your lost love. You cant get over em in a week or two when you've been loving em for years"

You know what, gue ngerasa semua yang lewat itu terlalu precious. Kenapa sih orang-orang seneng banget ngelupain? Gue sampe sekarang belom kepengen ngelupain Alwin, cuma menghilangkan rasa sayang aja. Parah banget kalo dilupain, selama 16 bulan 2 minggu itu tiap hari dilaluin dengan penuh perjuangan. Yang Alwin sakit, gue nyamperin ke rumahnya dan end up pulang naik taksi sendiri malem-malem dari gading ke bekasi. Yang gue sakit, eh Alwin gakpernah jenguk deng. Yang waktu 7 bulanan, dia kerumah gue cuma buat ngasih surat gara-gara gue gak ada dirumah lagi pergi beli makanan. Secara rumah gue sama dia tanjung priok ke bekasi. Perjuangan kan? Tapi kok lo mau ngelupain sih win? Gue bingung -_-

Semua yang terjadi
Pasti ada alesannya
Gue cuma gak tau kenapa
Gue harus cari tau

(gue ga konsekuen abis, diatas ngom mau lupain, bawahnya gamau lupain)

..GET A LIFE DUDE

I don't really want to hear any sad songs anymore. Stop being so melancholic

(image source : atoms.tumblr)

..TEE OR TEA

Today, I went to Bogor with my mom. She wanted to buy some boxer and at Bogor they're very cheap. So she asked me to come with her.
And I bought three tees, which two of them are for me and one of them for Alwin (he's craving for some tees)

they're for me

and this is for Alwin ;)

I love extra size tee

"You're a different human being to everybody you meet"

-Chuck Palahniuk

..today's quote

I watched Terminator Salvation today and I quote,

"There is no faith that can't be change"

&

"The difference between Human and Machine. Human cannot be program"

when you say you want me after we break up
i know that you just lie to me

..I thought it was summer

I don't care which today is Wednesday

Or even Sunday when it's holiday
I pull myself from the crowd
And hide behind the blanket

It's so cold outside
I nearly freeze
I thought that you would come
To light my furnace
But you never knock

I believe yesterday was summer
But today suddenly winter came
I don't prepare
To throw my bikinis
Or choose my best coat

More than I love myself

I love you. More than I can say in words, more than I could ever understand. More than all the stars in the night sky, more than all the clouds that adorn heaven. More than every single person that exists, or has existed, on this planet. More than the trillions of cells that make up every human body. More than all of the questions that have ever been asked, and much more than all of the answers that were ever given. More than doubt, more than uncertainty. More than you could ever know, more than you are willing to understand. More than every glance you have ever given me, more than every stare I have given you. More than all of the hairs on every head, more than all of the pages in every book. More than every second in every minute, in every day, in every week, in every month, in every year. More than infinity, more than time itself. More than my heart can contain, more than my mind is able to hold back. More than every laugh that has ever left a person’s lips, more than every smile that has ever found its place on a person’s face. More than every inch of land, more than every gallon of water that is on this earth. More than every house or building that has ever been built. More than all the dreams and nightmares that everyone has ever had. More than all of the lines and every picture that has ever been drawn with those lines, whether straight or curved. More than all of the tears that have ever left my eyes. More than all of the text messages that I have ever sent or received, and more than all of the phone calls I have ever dialed or received. More than the internet itself. More than all of the years that this planet has existed for. More than all of the dinosaurs that you can possibly think of. More than any other girl has ever loved you. More than I love That 70s Show, more than I love listening to music, more than I love taking pictures, more than I love writing. More than I love going to concerts and seeing my favorite bands live. More than, more than.

And lastly, I love you more than I love myself.

from http://hearttosoul.tumblr.com/

This exactly what I feel for you, Al. Wish you could understand me a little bit.

Sincerely,

Ellya

Grey's Anatomy Quote

GEORGE: [narrating] "Karma. One way or another it will leave us to face ourselves. We can look our karma in the eye or we can wait for it to sneak up from behind. But karma will always find us. The truth is, as surgeons, we have more chances than most to set the balance in our favor. Yet no matter how hard we try we can't escape our karma. It follows us home. I guess we can't really complain about our karma. It's not an affair. It's not unexpected. It just... evens the score. And even when we're about to do something that we know will tempt karma to bite us in the ass... well, it goes without saying. We do it anyway."

From Grey's Anatomy

Episode: What Have I Done To Deserve This?

Sincerely,

Ellya