..I LOVE YOU

It's been 49 days after we break up, but I still can't get over you. In fact, I'm crying now :'( I miss us. Last night, when I looked into your eyes I feel different. I know that you don't love me anymore and it hurts.

Selalu deh kalo gue pengen nulis, pas udah create a new post langsung bingung mau ngetik apa. Argh, I love you win :''''''(

..HELLOGOODBYE

Whisper hello, I miss you quite terribly...

-Hellogoodybe (lupa judulnya apa)

..HURT

Banyak orang yang putus. Gue gak ngerti gimana perasaan mereka. Kalo gue sih masih sedih. masih berkabung. Tapi untungnya, gue udah berhenti nangis. If I'm crying again, I really should stop. Gue nggak pernah mempersiapkan buat sedih kaya gini. Eh tapi kejadian aja gitu. I really had no clue. Ya, emang sih people come and go. Tapi tetep aja, I need someone to settle. To stay beside me (he told me that he will stand right beside me, but what do I have to expect?). Gue sedih aja gitu, he really get over me. Geez, 17 bulan. Itu lama banget loh. We've been through everything. Tapi cuma dengan beberapa hari he really get over me. Sedih banget.

Eh ini susah banget buat dijalanin, help me out dong. Ajak jalan kek keluar kota keluar negri dua bulan. Bayarin tapi -_-"

The one that you love the most may hurt you the most
He did that to me

..HUGS AND KISSES

Today I went to Bekasi Square with Alwin and Imam to watch 'drag me to hell' and eat 'd'cost'. OH GOD! I HATE THAT MOVIE. I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. I HATE YOU ALWIN!
After we watched that idiot movie, we went for pray and we ate at d'cost! Oh God, I ate like a pig, we ordered two fishes, squids, shells, and others. We also ordered rice for 6 person! Hahhaa.

I was using 'Star Wars' shirt, when Stark Trek is booming. Poor me.
After we went to Bekasi Square, Alwin played at my homey. We were surfing on the internet and also laughed a lot! We also had some hugs and friendly kisses, oh God he's such a breath taker. I love love love him. I know he loves me too tee-hee.

Tomorrow, my high school fwendzy will come to my house and we will play some dress up. I'll post more.

Currently feeling : missing my lovely Alwin :)

Sincerely,
Ellya

..HAPPY & ALSO UNHAPPY @ THE SAME TIME

Today I went to shop at thrifted market at Senen with Ella, Ria, and Marisa. I bought 2 leggings, 4 shirts, a blazer, and also a skirt for only Rp60.000,-
I really excited to wear those things. But they're still inside my washing machine to be clean. Okay, wait girl. Photos are coming up next.

By the way, I have no message or call from Alwin. I think he's leaving me. Actually, I wanna cry. Out loud. But, I can't. This feels very hurt until I can't even cry. I think about this every second, but I don't think he even care. It's okay. We're nobody now. But, I'm still loving him. I really wish I don't love him anymore, but he's the only person for me. A lifetime boyfriend, even if he decided to broke up with me. I love you, I don't care if you don't. I don't care if you with someone else. I don't care if I with someone else. But, I love you :'(

I watched this movie today and..... there're nothing I can say. It's just too fits on me. My best character is Gigi. I wish I could be more like her. I want to in love with a guy who loves me like I do. I used to like that. But not anymore. Oh Gigi, I adore you.

518 days

2 Januari 2008

Chat lagi pertama kali, setelah lama lost contact. Alwin lagi dijalan pulang dari bandung. Abis tahun baruan tuh dia. Seru banget ya hehehe. Pas dijalan dia online msn lewat hp, eh malah chat sama gue selama perjalanan. Tapi berhenti pas dia udah nyampe soalnya baterenya dia udah mau abis dan dia juga mau pulang. Dia ngesave nomer gue tuh pas dirumahnya Sakti hehehe.
Sebenernya besokkannya dia ngajak ketemuan di PIM tapi guenya nggak bisa, nggak ada temennya kalo gasalah. Ya jadinya nggak jadi deh. Eh dianya juga nggak jadi ke PIM.

4 Januari 2008
Ketemuan nih ceritanya. Di gading. Gue berangkat sama Vania. Dia berangkat sama Dimas dan Sakti. Gue kenalnya cuma sama Dimas doang tuh awalnya. Gue masih inget pas pertama ketemu dia, dia pake baju apa. Gue juga inget gue pake baju apa. Gue inget waktu gue kesana gue sama Vania naik apa. Hafal mati deh.
Gue seharian gugup gitu, mati gaya. Gue jaim abis, takut salah salah ntar dia ilfil haha. Tapi gue seneng jalan sama dia hari itu. Walaupun gue diem aja tapi dia selalu bikin gue ketawa. Pas mau pulang, dia nganterin gue ke taksi di lobby.

Gue makin deket deh makin hari sama dia :)

10 Januari 2008
Libur! Janjian dooong sama Alwin di PIM. Gue berangkat sama temen temen gue. Alwin berangkat sendiri naik motor tapi ke Diztrix dulu, trus ke PIM nya bareng Fia sama Dimas. Gue nyampe duluan, jadi gue makan dulu di foodcourt sama temen temen gue. Pas dia udah sampe, dia nyamperin gue ke foodcourt. Ya gue misah sama temen temen gue dan jalan bareng dia, fia, dimas.
Eh tapi gue ditinggal gitu sama fia sama dimas. Jadi cuma berdua sama Alwin. Karena guenya masih jaim jaim gitu jadi gue bingung mau ngapain sama Alwin. Bingung juga mau ngobrolin apa. Gue suka sama Alwin, jadinya malu hahaha.
Trus kita janjian ketemuan sama fia sama dimas di depan simfoni.
Dan jeng jeng jeng, dia nembak gue. Gue seneng banget!!! Walaupun masih malu malu, tapi gue seneng banget. Gue jadian sama dia loh.
Dia nganterin gue pulang naik motor. Katanya, itu perjalanan dia paling jauh bawa motor, ya gue juga paling jauh naik motor dari PIM ke Bekasi. Hahhahaha.

Gue sayang sama dia loh, dia bilang juga dia sayang sama gue.

Sampe akhirnya.....

1 Juni 2009

Kita putus.
Gak ada penjelasan apa apa tentang ini.
I'm too hurt to type a letter.
Bye bye my lover.
You're always be the one.
I love you.
More than I love my cellphone.
More than I love A Rocket To The Moon.
More than I love wedges.
I want you.
More than I want Sour Sally.
More than I want Sushi.

Im not that beautiful to be next to you
Im not that smart to talk to you
Im not that kind to be your friend
Im not that rich to give you present
But, I love you

More than yesterday

With love,
Ellya xoxo

Bye bye my lover

A year, 4 months, 3weeks, a day
I love you still ;)

bye, xoxo

With love,
Ellya

My lovely Alwin drives a car

Go out to Kemang with Alwin and his friends. I really love today. All the laughs, and the atmosphere between me and Alwin. Far from fight so we just laugh all the time. Thank God we're not arguing again. I miss him, just too much until my stomach sick. When we arrived at my home, I hugged him very tight. But he didn't let me hug him too long. His friends were waiting in his car. Oh yeah, finally he drives a car. Another finally....

I wish that he could go to my home every weekend, so I have no time to miss him. Missing someone that you're really fall into is hurtful.

Today, we took some photos but they're in Rahma's cam. I really waiting for the taging ;-)

Lotsa smiles and laughs today
xoxo
Can't wait for the next meeting with Alwin. Huhuhu :'(

Sincerely,
Ellya

Flexible

image source : icanread

I wish that you are so flexible, so I can put you in my pocket. But, I want you to be big enough to be hug :')

T_________T

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
And let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on

The Weepies - World Spins Madly On




just remember our project, love

Sincerely,
Ellya

Saya sayang dia

I'm afraid of losing you