Everything is not enough

L is Lencist. L stands for love.

Kesan pertama dari kelas ini pas awal masuk: Bodo amat masuk kelas mana yang penting cepet naik kelas cepet lulus toh.

Awal-awal masih seperti kelas 10, dateng sekolah paling cepet, pulang sekolah paling cepet. Ya sekolah cuma sebagai suatu kewajiban yang harus dijalani. Cuma buat ngabisin waktu yang ternyata nggak usah diabisin juga akan habis sendiri. Hal itu berlanjut sampe akhir-akhir semester 1. Mulai deh keluar asli-aslinya.

Semester 2: I can hardly describe the situation with words. It was way beyond great. I was having a really good time with them.

Bingung juga mau posting apa. I'm not good as a writer.

Moment paling berharga: Turboplast & Pagelaran.

Betapa niatnya para lelaki untuk latihan bola plastik di Tanah Mas demi menangin Turboplast. Jadi inget masa-masanya nonton futsal di AXC. Inget masa-masa kalah mulu kalo main di AXC tapi Alhamdulillah bisa jadi juara 2 di Turboplast 2010. Kangen pas hectic-hecticnya rapat dimana mana, nagihin uang pagelaran, latihan di SD-nya Sandra yang dapet makan gratis ayam bakar enak :) Rapat dirumah Pak Ketua Asto di Rockwell a.k.a. Kodam Sumur Batu. Ngerekam video dimana mana. Ngerasain angkat-angkat drum, ampli, dll untuk keperluan pagelaran. Bahkan Yaris gw ngerasain ngebawa drum :) Inget waktu sujud syukur di lapangan gara-gara Lencist masuk final. Masa-masanya di kelas ketawa-ketawa doang nggak pernah belajar di barisan belakang.

Kangennya... Maksimal banget.

The truth is. Time is running fast. And it won't turn back.

And our moments, won't come again.

The laughs, will never be the same.

Even the tears, won't be like they used to.

Niatnya mau nulis panjang-panjang tapi gak kuat kayaknya. The feeling already take the control of me, I should turn this laptop off and go to sleep, feel our togetherness again in my sweet dream. I miss us.

Thanks for accepting me as your friend, thanks for letting me in, thanks for all the lesson that you taught me, thanks for everything, even everything is not enough.

Kesan terakhir dari kelas ini: Semoga kelas 12 kita sekelas lagi. You've made a serious mark on my heart, a lovely one :3

Bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita runtuh.

JULY 26th

MONDAY, JULY 26th 2010

It was monday and it was 26.

It was our lovely 3rd monthlyversary.I received a bracelet. A hand-made bracelet.
He's so not that type who would do this kind of thing for anyone. And fortunately I'm not just anyone. Thanks to you.

Please, stop biting your nails

dear you,
thanks for sitting next to me everyday
thanks for sharing your earphone
thanks for making my photo as your phone wallpaper
thanks for letting me write "ellya cantik" on your hand
thanks for letting me write "ellya cantik" as your profile
thanks for letting me punch your stomache everyday
also for letting me harm you just because i enjoy doing it :p

thanks for driving me anywhere i ask
thanks for teaching me about math and physic
thanks for giving me those stupid and sweet smiles
thanks for letting me kidnap your phone for couple of hours
thanks for teaching me how to play "going away to college" by guitar
also for forcing you to play baby - justin bieber on tap tap revenge

i love your scent, even it mixed with the smell of cigar & smoke
i love your hair, even its kinda messy
i love your tall body, even you cannot stand up straight
i love your thin foot, even there are too many mark on it
i love your smile, wheter you showing your teeth or not

one thing i'm asking you is just...
please,
stop biting your nails.

thank you,
i love you

Am I worth for the wait?

what if? the one that you love is belong to someone else?
what if? your best girl in love with someone who loves you?
what if? you are in denial with yourself?

i hate to admit that i'm in self denial. i know it, i feel it, even worse, i chose it. i made some boundaries that i couldn't even obey. my head twisting. you were like the coolest thing on earth but i'm afraid to touch you even just the tip of your nose. i'm afraid for making the wrong movement. but truthfully, i'm afraid of get hurt twice.

reminiscing the old days, back then i used to cry, a lot, about some shit that really unnecessary, i'm afraid it'll happen, more and more or worse and worse. i was young and stupid back then, but if i let myself to fall again, do i even change to be more mature or i drag myself to the same hole?

if i'm asking you to wait, would you wait for me? am i worth for the wait?

Caffeine drives me insane

I told you.
I like you.
But, I'm not in love with you.
I like you.
Till' the maximum level.
I want to be with you.
But just next to you.
Not as your girl.
Thank you for listening.
Thank you for understanding.

note : just tried the fish eye effect with ma peephole. kinda cute, i guess.

If, Guess, Hope

If you love someone, you want him to look after you, take care of you, talk to you, or just stare at you.

If you love someone, you expect him to see what's in you, see the good inside you.

If you love someone, you wish him to be next to you, to always be there, even in silence.

If you love someone, you will let him happy for whatever he chooses.

I guess I like someone.

But, I guess he doesn't.

I guess I like someone.

Even we never officially talk.

I guess I like someone.

Even the longest conversation we had just about 20 minutes.

I guess I like someone.

Even he just can answer my question without asking me back.

I guess I like someone.

But I don't feel so right about us.

I guess I like someone.

But we're different human being.

I hope.

I don't lose him this time.

Hope we can work these things out.

I hope.

Even in silence.

I still can hear his voice.

Calling my name.

I hope.

I won't get hurt.

And he won't get hurt either.

Just so you know, I like you too much

I wish that we have the 'sting' between us.

I wish that you like me the way I do.

I wish that you'd be here with me.

I wish that we're okay.

Do I Like You, Mysterious Boy?

What does it feels to like someone?

Because I think, I like someone now.

And I don't know the best way to describe how I feel.

I haven't officially met him yet.

We do the chat thing through messenger.

I've seen him for couple times.

He also has seen me for couple times.

He's smart.

He's a young talented guy.

He has a weird sense of humor.

He's very thoughtful.

He's quite handsome (err.... let me say just good looking).

He's just exactly the guy I like.

Well boy, I'm not asking you to like me back.

>>I'm listening to HardRock FM >>I Just Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Buble

I'm done pretending

I'm sick

I'm done pretending

In fact,

I miss you

still............

..i'm going to THROW this away

I have to say this is the sweetest birthday present ever and he gave me in perfect way

Got to move this thing to trash bin

Bye bye

..SO IT MUST BE LOVE

image source : tumblr

Posting so much today. I miss the old times. Really. 10000000% obviously yes.
You don't know what you get until you loose it.
Did I lose you or did you lose me?
This is makin' my head feels dizzy -_-"