..THE GIRLS WAS SCREAMING THEIR NAME

Gue masih shock O.o
Beneran
Ga boong

I was waiting for my mom to picked me up after I had my English course. And then, there was a girl who ran to a boy on a motorcycle. And the girl was shouting like this "Gue minta pertanggung jawaban lo. Pokoknya sampe sekarang gue belom dapet. Lo harus tanggung jawab." Don't know why gue kepikiran sampe sekarang -_-" agak gak penting ya. Tapi horror aja gitu tiba-tiba dia ngomong gitu. Dan mereka berdua berantem loh. Serem. Gue nggak ngerti deh apa yang mereka omongin. Takut O.o

By the way, hari ini sekolah gue rame banget! Gimana ga? Samuel Rizal (Adhit on Eiffel I'm in Love movie) came to my school and played basketball with 21 team. And also there's a man (Fano on Nikita sinetron hehe) who joined to played basketball. Ya sekolah gue geger lah, yang cewe-cewe pada heboh. Kocak deh :3

Hmmm... Gitu deh pokoknya hari ini. Freak -_-"

..EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

Seperti judul blog gue, gue harus percaya kalo semua terjadi untuk suatu alasan. Wheter it's good or not. Gue putus cinta juga karena suatu alasan. Alasannya Alwin sih katanya "ntar kamu bawel nyuruh-nyuruh aku pulang, ntar kamu jealousan gak jelas lagi". Hmmm... gue sih bingung ya sama alesannya. Secara dia belom tau gitu bakalan kejadian kaya gitu, dan juga dia ngga megang omongannya gitu bakalan baik-baik aja walaupun LDR sama gue. Yahelah, Bandung doang. Sama rumah gue 1 jam doang. Kalo emang udah ga sayang ya baru itu lain. Sedih gak sih lo jadi gue? Gue pengen lupain semuanya. Gue gak pengen terlalu sedih jadi orang. Tapi gimana dong, ini susah banget :(

Then, Alwin akan jadian sama orang baru cepat atau lambat. Trus ntar masalah lagi, sama aja masalahnya. Putus lagi. Wuakakaka seneng gua. No offense ya, gue tetep manusia. Jadi segala kekurangannya maklumin aja. Someday you'll know that I was the one for you. Anjir pede banget. Bodo amat. Gue denger dari "Someday We'll Know" -nya Mandy Moore ft Justin Foreman kalo gasalah.

Tadi pagi gue baca tweet-an nya Pandji (twitter.com/pandji) sebelum dia tidur.
Dan seperti ini isinya
"Before I sleep: its okay to keep thinkin about your lost love. You cant get over em in a week or two when you've been loving em for years"

You know what, gue ngerasa semua yang lewat itu terlalu precious. Kenapa sih orang-orang seneng banget ngelupain? Gue sampe sekarang belom kepengen ngelupain Alwin, cuma menghilangkan rasa sayang aja. Parah banget kalo dilupain, selama 16 bulan 2 minggu itu tiap hari dilaluin dengan penuh perjuangan. Yang Alwin sakit, gue nyamperin ke rumahnya dan end up pulang naik taksi sendiri malem-malem dari gading ke bekasi. Yang gue sakit, eh Alwin gakpernah jenguk deng. Yang waktu 7 bulanan, dia kerumah gue cuma buat ngasih surat gara-gara gue gak ada dirumah lagi pergi beli makanan. Secara rumah gue sama dia tanjung priok ke bekasi. Perjuangan kan? Tapi kok lo mau ngelupain sih win? Gue bingung -_-

Semua yang terjadi
Pasti ada alesannya
Gue cuma gak tau kenapa
Gue harus cari tau

(gue ga konsekuen abis, diatas ngom mau lupain, bawahnya gamau lupain)

..JIBBITZ

Gimana sih caranya bikin post itu bermakna? Sumpah ya nggak ada yang penting dari apa yang gue tulis disini. Gue pengen gitu bikin sesuatu yang bisa jadi inspirasi buat semua orang. Tapi ini terlalu 'nothing'. Sedih banget sih jadi gue huhuhu.

Hey, lo tau gak sih? Gue masih sedih. Gue tau gue menyedihkan banget. Putus cinta gitu aja masih sedih sebulan lebih. Kampungan? You may say that way. Tapi gue seperti lagu yang gue dengerin ini "Aku tak bisa ke lain hati". Hahahahaha. Buat yang pernah baca blog gue yang lama yang dengan tololnya keapus pasti tau deh gimana Alwin (my ex) berharga banget buat gue. Masih ada beberapa post di musicboxmachine.wordpress.com. Sekarang sih gue masih sayang banget, tapi gue udah biasa aja menanggapinya. Tapi gue masih bengong bengong gitu haha kampung abis. Sumpah gue malu.

Gue..................kangen dicintai. Hahaahaha. Iya gue kangen ada orang yang sayang sama gue dengan tulus. Orang yang bersedia ngebahagiain gue. Orang yang tiba-tiba sms gue. Orang yang tiba-tiba nelfon gue. Hahahaha sangat menyenangkan dicintai seseorang ya. Iya tuh dulu gue suka banget nelfon si itu tuh cuma ngom "Aku sayang kamu" trus gue matiin. Hahahaha. Zaman dulu sangat membahagiakan ya? Zaman smp gue juga membahagiakan, kan zaman dulu tuh.

Eh sumpah ya kalo gue ngomongin masa lalu mulu kapan majunya?

Eh gue pengen ngubah kamar gue deh. Biar lebih asoy gitu gimana ya, biar lebih cozy. Ada yang tau artinya cozy? Gue sih nggak. Hahahaha gue jadi bego nih lama gak mikir. Kesian deh ica. Kamar gue kan kecil nih ya, tapi biar lebih nyaman gimana sih caranya? Tapi gue maunya semua ada di kamar gue. Komputer, tv, laptop, ps, dvd, lemari baju, lemari buku, tempat tidur, dll. Sekarang sih semua barang itu udah masuk tapi kamar gue menjadi.............sumpek. Mana catnya pink sama kuning. Dimas bilang kamar gue kaya eskrim. Inget Dimas, inget masa lalu. Hahahaha salah lagi.

Gue tiba tiba inget ulangtahun gue tahun 2008. It was the coolest birthday ever!!!!!!!!! Udah ah jangan diinget, tar nangis gua.

Hmmm, bingung mau nulis apa lagi. Eh gue beli kacamata Fendi! Baru loh baru! Seneng geela! Tumben dibeliin yang mahal. Biasanya yang mangdu punya 300rban. Eh ini 930rb di Optik Seis. Seneng lah gue. Diskon gitu ceritanya. Tadinya 3juta. Diskon jadi segitu. Lumayan yaaaaaaa? Seneng deh. Ah udah ah. Eh iya satu lagi. Tadi beli jibbitz 13ribu di metro. Besok mau beli lagi ah yang banyak. Bahagia gue. Hehehehe. Sudah dulu ya. Bye bye.

Sincerely,
Ellya xoxo

..GET A LIFE DUDE

I don't really want to hear any sad songs anymore. Stop being so melancholic

(image source : atoms.tumblr)

..HUGS AND KISSES

Today I went to Bekasi Square with Alwin and Imam to watch 'drag me to hell' and eat 'd'cost'. OH GOD! I HATE THAT MOVIE. I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT. I HATE YOU ALWIN!
After we watched that idiot movie, we went for pray and we ate at d'cost! Oh God, I ate like a pig, we ordered two fishes, squids, shells, and others. We also ordered rice for 6 person! Hahhaa.

I was using 'Star Wars' shirt, when Stark Trek is booming. Poor me.
After we went to Bekasi Square, Alwin played at my homey. We were surfing on the internet and also laughed a lot! We also had some hugs and friendly kisses, oh God he's such a breath taker. I love love love him. I know he loves me too tee-hee.

Tomorrow, my high school fwendzy will come to my house and we will play some dress up. I'll post more.

Currently feeling : missing my lovely Alwin :)

Sincerely,
Ellya

New fresh layout

I changed my layout, I know the colors are very bright, but I like it! By the way, last Thursday I joined seminar about Fonty's University at Eindhoven. Although the seminar is not really interesting but, it makes me really wanna go to Eindhoven soon. It was really sounds interesting. Live by yourself. It's really interesting. Netherlands, ooooh here I come!

Another by the way, I got a new phoooooone last Sunday (May 10th). It's Blackberry Curve 8310. I know many peeps are using this phone. But, I like it. I don't care if someone says I only following the trend. Do I care to your cellphone? So, better you don't take a serious care to mine :p
And I'm asking alwin to change his phone to be like mine, so we can chat all day loooong. Hahaha.

June 1st will be the first time for my UAS. Wish me luck everybody. I really wish I could get the best mark I've ever get. I have to reach Science!

By the way, my dad stop calling me. But, I'm feeling quite guilty. Sorry dad, I'll text you. I promise!

Another good news. Alwin just gave me a birthday present!!!!!!!! Yeay. I'm lovin it. I know you are the best man in my life! I got wedges from him. It looks very cute, with flower on it's back. Thank you for the gift. I love you so much! (please don't ever think that I'm materialistic).

Wedges from Alwin!

Enough for today I guess
Thing that I want to buy right now is
A full hardcase for my phone
So it will decrease the damage to my phone if it's fall down
Bye bye readers

Sincerely,
Ellya

Updates

Besok adalah ulangan biologi. Gue sekarang lagi asik-asiknya memandangi tulisan-tulisan di buku catatan mengenai Mollusca sampe Mammalia. Anjir, banyak banget. Gak cukup otak gue rasanya buat nampung semuanya. By the way, last Saturday I watched "Watchmen" which is regretful. The movie was awfull. Oh nothing I can explain more, it's just totally failed movie! And I feel dumb enough to watch it. It was disaster! Spent 35.000 rupiahs for nothing. I even cant wait the time to out from the cinema.

Last Sunday, I went to Senayan City (again, which Saturday I went there too). I bought three tee(s) from Giordano. SALE UP TO 50%. Yaaa.... Lumayan lah. I bought 3 for only 237.000 rupiahs. It wasn't 'only' actually. Hmm.... I'm in love with TUTTI FRUTTI! It's a frozen yoghurt but you can take it as much as you can, it came in 8 flavours. After you take the yoghurt, you equal it. It costs 1500 per 10 gr. And I got discount for 20% yipee! But I don't really like the toppings. They're all sucks.

I saw a pretty bag from enchantedos.multiply.com. It comes in purple and it's fringe! I'm lovin it. But the price is 205.000 rupiahs. I only got 400.000 rupiahs for this month from my mom, so I definitely can't afford it. Poor me. There're lots of things that I want to buy, but there's no money left. Poor me, again.

Alwin still haven't given me the birthday gift yet (my birthday is 7th April). I asked him to buy me a pair of sandals which I dont have. I only got lots of pump flats, I think I need sandals too. By the way, I ordered PVC legging from Misel (my senior high school friend). But she didn't come to school today because she was sick. Let's hope she's getting well and tomorrow she can come to school and bring that thing. Let's hope. By the way, my mom will pay for this legging. Ok mom? Since you haven't given me anything for last 4 months!

Huh, I'm so talk active rite now huh? I need to go back to biology stuff. Pray for me so I can do the test well tomorrow. I need a great score for this test. Oh God, help me. I'm counting on You.

Sincerely,
Ellya

My lovely Alwin drives a car

Go out to Kemang with Alwin and his friends. I really love today. All the laughs, and the atmosphere between me and Alwin. Far from fight so we just laugh all the time. Thank God we're not arguing again. I miss him, just too much until my stomach sick. When we arrived at my home, I hugged him very tight. But he didn't let me hug him too long. His friends were waiting in his car. Oh yeah, finally he drives a car. Another finally....

I wish that he could go to my home every weekend, so I have no time to miss him. Missing someone that you're really fall into is hurtful.

Today, we took some photos but they're in Rahma's cam. I really waiting for the taging ;-)

Lotsa smiles and laughs today
xoxo
Can't wait for the next meeting with Alwin. Huhuhu :'(

Sincerely,
Ellya

I GOT MY OWN NOTEBOOK
TOSHIBA SATELLITE M300
FINALLY,
IT'S LIKE DREAM COMES TRUE
THANK GOD

(I know it's sounds 'norak' but only God knows how happy am I)

I <3 my life

image source : secretary.tumblr

I love my life, don't care how much boring it is.
I love my life, even I know I have to face many bad things.
I love my life, even it's only black and white.

What is the answer of.............

image source : maii

I think I have to free myself.
Choosing another.
Selecting another.
Someone asked "do you want to spend the rest of your amazing teenager life with only one person?"
And then I'm freeze.
I can't answer that.
I can't find the best answer.
Not even close.

There's no point of regretting

After reading someone's blog. I've just realized something. Being away from home is not a good thing. You will lose many things. Your bed's warmness, you're favorite room (it's suppose to be your own room), you're favorite tv spot, and so on. And being away from Indonesia is actually not a good thing. You can't find many foods as much as in Indonesia. Indonesia is a rich country, and I love the foods. Hell yeah, maybe I love Japanese food, or maybe I love European food, or maybe America. But where you can find those foods as cheap as in Indonesia? Sushi is still expensive even you eat that in Japan.

Oh God, I know I'm gonna miss gado-gado or soto ayam and others. But, life is moving right? I have to go out from Indonesia. No! Not in purpose of abandoning Indonesia but in purpose of get more education out there to build Indonesia for better Indonesia. This country needs changes. Am I rite?

I have to live my senior high time now. I can't feel any regret that I have choose sman 21 to stay in. There's no point of regretting rite? I'm still stay in this school, don't care how many times I cry, don't care how long I shout. My duty just to live this. 2 years left to college. I have to prepare myself. Being away from home is not easy, so I have to prepare from now. Yes, I have to prepare.

Sincerely,
Ellya

She's killing me, quitely

I'm so freaking tired. No need to explain, this biology stuffs are really complicated. Porifera, Choelenterata, and Vermes. Oh God! I believe, if my biology teacher is Mrs. Elis, I won't worry as much as this time. Oh no no no, Nurmaya is killing me -_-

Kenapa sih ulangannya harus essay?
Kenapa sih harus banyak bahannya?
Kenapa sih gak pernah ada yang dapet 100?
Kenapa sih gue harus ketemu guru kaya gini?
Kenapa sih?
Kenapa?
Gak adil -_-

I want my junior high school times back. Please come back. I don't want to graduate from junior high school. I want my freedom. How can I study kalo gurunya tuh kaya mau makan orang? Ngeliatnya aja udah keki. Ya hari gini gitu, be a friend with student. Ini malah jadi musuh bebuyutan. Huaaaa, ganti kek gurunya. Curhatan seorang murid yang teraniaya nih.

Hari ini dua orang guru nggak masuk. Kok asik sih? Sekolah kaya gini aja terus hahaha. Iya sih gue gak pinter-pinter tapi kan yang nggak masuk juga bukan guru yang pelajarannya heboh. Ya kalo masih pelajaran santai bisa lah gue (sombong parah). Ah udah ah, back to biology stuffs. Ya Allah, semoga saya dikasih kekuatan untuk mengingat dengan cepat. Terimakasih.

Quote of the day
"Happiness is not a destination. It is a method of life."
-Burton Hills

Sincerely,
Ellya

It's hard to believe, but I couldn't see

Hari-hari menjelang kenaikan kelas sebentar lagi datang. Kok asik sih? Gue pengen cepet-cepet kelas 2, trus kelas 3, trus lulus deh. Kuliah di Belanda. Oks bambang. Oh iya, harus daftar LIA nih, biar TOEFL gue diatas 600 jadinya kan bisa masuk jurusan Media. Hihihihi, asik ya kerja di majalah.

By the way, I have to wait until UN is finish. After that, we (read: me and Alwin) can meet as much as we want. Ya kan sayang? huahauhauhaa.

Aduh bete nih gue, sepatu yang gue pesen itu yang gift from myself itu, sakit amat dah dipakenya. Harus pake kaos kaki nih. Atau gak, I have to wear band aid gitu to cover my wound. Hmmm, reminiscing word "Wound" jadi inget waktu pertama ketemu Alwin (kok gue gak nyambung?). Ya gitu deh, Sakti nulis kata "Wound" gitu di lirik lagunya. Ya secara tulisannya 'bagus', ya gue gak bisa baca deh hahahahauhauahuaa.

Eh eh kok gitu sih? -___-" eh gue mau bikin band (ngikutin tren) hahahaha. Kaya The Weepies gitu berduva. Sama Alwin dung dung tek. Tapi ntar abis UAN, doakan ya kk. Canda -_- udah ah, gak jelas gue.

See you on the next post.

Sincerely,
Ellya

The Gifts - Angel and Airwaves

The gifts for my birthday :

1. Brown flats shoes, they're from me!

2. Statement Necklace, it was from Ella (my chair mate)

DIY studded thrift vest, plain white shirt, thrift short jeans

3. Leopard Scarf, it was from Nadia (my junior high best girl)

thrift dress jeans

4. Heart Shaped Necklace, it was from Vania (my junior high best girl)

thrift dress jeans

Thanks a lot for those gifts. I love love love them :-)

B-Day

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

Thank You Cassandra, Keisha, Frans, and Ellen for those surprises.

You're really made that day beautiful.

And also Alwin Muhaimin for that video call thing.

Get well soon my bunny.

By the way, I'm 16 now and I'm not afraid of it.

Thank you for Diniella for my very first gift ;-)

April, 7th 2009

Sincerely,

Ellya

Get well soon my beloved

Disuruh posting tentang hari ini sama alwin. Hari ini gue sekolah seperti biasa. Yang bikin beda, dari pagi sampe sore, Alwin gak sms gue sama sekali. We have some problem. Karena dia lagi sakit, gue berinisiatif untuk jenguk dia. Gue ajak Sakti juga sekalian. Dan akhirnyaaaaaaaaaaaa...... kita berangkat. Eh pokoknya gini deh, gue ke McD gading nunggu sakti jemput, trus baru kerumahnya Alwin ganteng.

Nyampe dirumahnya, gue kan turun tuh dari motornya Sakti, trus mau masuk kerumahnya eh tapi gue balik lagi, gue takut ketemu bokapnya Alwin hehehehe. Aku malu. Trus setelah Sakti masuk, ya gue ikutan masuk trus salim dulu duecc. Trus pas masuk rumahnya, gue ketemu nyokapnya dulu sama Ridwan. Salim dulu sama nyokapnya Alwin. Trus katanya disuruh masuk aja ke kamarnya Edwin, soalnya Alwin lagi tidur disitu. Yaudah, akhirnya Alwinnya kita bangunin decc. Dia kaget gitu haha, tapi si Alwin ganteng ga langsung bangun maca, udah bangun, eh tidur lagi, trus bangun lagi, tidur lagi, gitu deh agak freak ya emang lo Alwin ganteng.

Trus abis itu ngobrol-ngobrol deh. Alwin badannya gak panas-panas amat ya tapi hawanya anget banget, gue sama Sakti bisa sekalian menghangatkan badan hahahahaha apasih. Eh katanya si Alwin mau dibawa kerumah sakit, mau dirawat aja gitu. Tapi Alwinnya ketakutan, takut diinfus hehehe. Setelah menunggu beberapa saat (beberapa jam maksud saya), kami (gue, Alwin, mamanya Alwin, bapaknya Alwin, dan Sakti) berangkat ke RS Mitra Keluarga Kelapa Gading. Jam 7-an kurang gitu kayanya deh berangkatnya.

Trus sampe sana gue gak nunggu lama, soalnya harus pulang sendiri malam malam begini dan naik taksi. Yauda, eke cabut aja gitu jam setengah 8-an. Dan menunggu kabar selanjutnya lewat sms dari Sakti dan Alwin.

Oh iya, hari ini Sakti baik deh hahahahaha makasih ya Sak mau direpotin sama gue wakakaka. Ya pokoknya hari ini biar capek dan gue jadi sakit tapi tetep aja gue seneng bisa nganterin Alwin ke rumah sakit. Hehehehehehe. Cepet sembuh ya Alwin ganteng ;-)

Oh iya, minta doa buat Ella ya. Dia abis kecelakaan, tapi alhamdulillah gak kritis sih. Minta doanya ya semoga Ella dan Alwin cepet sembuh. Makasih.

Oh iya satu lagi, Alwin gak keterima ITB. Gpp kok yang, kan udah dapet Telkom. Hehehehehe. Kuliah pake seragam.

Sincerely,
Ellya

(post tentang ulangtahun nyusul ya, gue capek banget soalnya)

I want lenovo idea pad!

Alwin gak keterima di UI katanya. I don't feel anything. I wasn't sorry for him, don't know why. I know that it isn't his future college. Hehehehe. By the way, last saturday night was great for me. Went to sency with Ellen, Frans, Dhimas. Then, met Nadia and Vania there. Ate sushi tei and also sour sally twice ;-) Took lots of photos at night (around 10 pm). Back to Ellen's home, actually we wanted to do some karaoke, but Ellen can't operate that karaoke stuffs, so we're just lying and sleeping. Until, Vania's mom came and picked us to home. Whoah, what a tired night. But awesome.

I texted alwin one long message (8 parts) and he read it when he open up his eyes at morning and he texted me back. I love you, win :-)
Alwin, hari jum'at aku ngerayain ulangtahun aku, kamu dateng ya jelek. Udah lama gak ketemu tau. Lama bangetttttttttt.

By the way, my birthday is coming. 7th April. Tuesday. Hmmmm, I'm waiting for the gifts! Hahahahaha kidding

Alwin cepet sembuh dong please

Alwin lagi sakit sekarang................... cikunguya sialan..........................

Gimana ulangtahun aku yang?

Kamu cepet sembuh dong...............................

Udah di doain mulu masa gak sembuh-sembuh............................

Dosa aku banyak banget apa ya? Sampe doa aku ga dikabulin sama Allah....................

Kamu gausah ngasih kado yang, dateng aja pas aku ulangtahun............................

Itu aja deh kadonya, biar gratis........................

Paling bensin doang........................

Bayar dikit gpp ya yang..............................

Sembuh dong yang........................ masa ga sekolah2 sih.........................

Masa kita gak ketemu-ketemu sih........................

Dulu pas aku masih smp, ketemunya seminggu bisa 3x.........................

Sekarang jadi 3minggu sekali deh.............................

Kita gak asik nih sekarang.........................

Aku gak mau sma deh yang kalo gini.........................

Tapi emang asikkan smp kok yang.....................

Cepet sembuh dong win.......................

Sakit mulu kan gaenak..........................

Gakbisa ketemu aku......................

:'(

My birthday is coming and new alfalink

I remember about someone's post. He wrote that he met his girlfriend and he said "She's lovely today". Geez, don't you think that it's so cute? Well, I think that it's cute. I met Alwin for the last time at Sunday, March 16th. And when we were seeing face to face, he said "Kamu kayak ibu-ibu aja deh" -______________-" okay, not all the boys are same.

By the way, my birthday is coming hehehehe. And as usual, I want to make birthday wishlist!

Okay let's start

1. I want a lenovo s10 ideapad. In any color. I don't care.
2. I want lots of accessories ! Earrings, bracelets, necklaces, or any others.
3. I want a new pair of shoes.
4. I want a leopard doll. I saw it long time ago, but I'm still remember how soft it's hair.
5. I want a new iPod. iPod classic 120GB would be greaaaaaaaaaaaaat.
6. I want to have vacation by myself to singapore. Hahahhaa haven't been there. Poor me.
7. I want Alwin give me a very lovely surprise hahahaha.
8. I want my Junior High friends to back at one school together.
9. I want a new dslr camera.
10. I want many gifts from my friends and family. Hhahahahaha.
    

I think they're too much. Hahhahaha. But, it's okay. It's only a wish, well, I'm hoping that they could come true.

Yesterday, my mom bought me...................................an ALFALINK!

Ha-ha-ha. Thank  you mom. It means a lot for me. I want this so bad ;)