Ellya Nuraisyah

M.P.T.Y.

2010-08-13T22:02:00.003+07:00

Baby I'm not sure if this is love.

There it is, there's a point that you could reach and that's the point of emptiness, but emptiness with you surroundings by people, persons. It's like you have him, you have her, you have anyone you want to but you cannot talk to them. None of them just would not understand. They knew you since you were 8 maybe, they knew you for years, but you just cannot talk to them. They wouldn't give the answers of your unimaginably questions. Yes, question with (s), a.k.a. Many questions.

The situation is, she has a boyfriend, she may call him a best friend, but she couldn't talk to him with heart. He just wouldn't understand. The world they're living is separated by line which very bold and no one could break it. She loves him, she needs him, she wants him, she likes him, so much. She wants him to be the first person in every her morning and the last one in every her night, but somehow he doesn't the one that she wants to talk to. She needs the other guy who would understand, by heart.

You know, you have questions, you know the answers, but you need other person to spill it to you. You want them to tell you this and that. Or the simple conclusion is, you don't want to solve it alone. You need partners. Or one is enough, you need a partner.

Are they just dead bodies with no soul but could walk and talk?

Well, is that true that your trusted friend is yourself only?

Your best friend is yourself only?

Then why would us need anybody else?

Guess what I want to say is... please do understand me. Sorry for being too complex. I'm just using difficult words to understand...

UPDATED!

2010-08-12T16:06:00.002+07:00

New house. New room. New hair!

Hello!

Home yet?

2010-08-11T22:21:00.003+07:00

I've just finally moved to my new lovely house.

What's new is now I'm living with someone called "Dad".

Three years without having someone called "Dad", I may say was my 3 years of freedom. So does my mom feel.

I told you, I live with my mom and that's fine rather than having more strangers with me.

picture stolen from postsecret

Saya mau tinggal di rumah pohon

2010-08-05T18:18:00.002+07:00

Hari ini ulangan biologi. Alhamdulillah ulangan biologi paling mudah yang pernah gw jalanin. Cuma dapet kesempatan kilat buat belajar dikarenakan malemnya gw malah hura-hura nonton konser All Time Low yang hujan bra itu di Tennis Indoor Senayan. Cuma belajar satu setengah jam kurang karena sempet ketiduran karena ngantuknya pol banget. Sampe gw harus ngetweet "Ngantuknya apa-apaan nih" (oke ga penting).

Jeng jeng jeng. Waktunya ulangan biologi. Langsung caw ke lab biologi yang enjoy dingin dingin empuk. Masih duduk ngacak nih, gua tau sih kalo bakalan duduk sesuai absen, gua juga tau kalo absen 16 itu di paling depan, tapi gua masih pengen nggak percaya. Tapi ternyata... "Yang barisan depan absen 1, 6, 11, 16, 21, 26, 31, 36" Selamat saya ucapkan seperti nama biskuit.

Ternyata... ulangan berjalan mulus sekali! Walaupun ada yang nyontek 1 sih, yang soal etiolasi itu. Sumpah gw lupa banget, gw kira ada hubungannya sama air atau apa gitu, taunya yang tumbuhan tumbuh di tempat gelap. Hapal mati lah itu! Sama nomer 2 overheard gitu dikit, dikit kok, suwer, lagian jawabannya sama kayak gua.

Nah, sampailah ke soal nomer 7. Gw lupa soal aslinya, pokoknya intinya "Kalau kamu ingin hidup berdekade di rumah pohon dan kamu membuat rumah pohon di bawah cabang pohon, apakah rumah pohon itu akan ikut tumbuh seiring dengan pertumbuhan pohon tersebut? Jelaskan jawabanmu! (skor 15)"
Gua jawab nih kalo ga bakalan ikutan tumbuh, soalnya jaringan meristem yang aktif membelah itu ada di ujung atas batang, jadi yg dibawah gak ngaruh.
Pas ulangan udah selesai, gw cabs ke belakang, gw diskusi sama Ella soal ulangan barusan, tiba-tiba doi curhat...

"Lo tau soal nomer 7 kan? Yang tentang rumah pohon? Lo tau gak gw jawabnya apa? Gw jawab kalo: Itu sudah diperhitungkan oleh arsiteknya, jadi tidak mungkin ikut tumbuh, semuanya sudah diperhitungkan oleh arsitek yang baik."

Gua diem.

Dia lanjut.

"Kalo Demmy jawabnya: Pokoknya saya nggak mau tinggal dirumah pohon, bu."

Gua cabut.

Sakit perut.

Sekian review ulangan Biologi hari ini, selamat menikmati makan malam anda.
Ciao!

Everything is not enough

2010-08-02T20:41:00.004+07:00

L is Lencist. L stands for love.

Kesan pertama dari kelas ini pas awal masuk: Bodo amat masuk kelas mana yang penting cepet naik kelas cepet lulus toh.

Awal-awal masih seperti kelas 10, dateng sekolah paling cepet, pulang sekolah paling cepet. Ya sekolah cuma sebagai suatu kewajiban yang harus dijalani. Cuma buat ngabisin waktu yang ternyata nggak usah diabisin juga akan habis sendiri. Hal itu berlanjut sampe akhir-akhir semester 1. Mulai deh keluar asli-aslinya.

Semester 2: I can hardly describe the situation with words. It was way beyond great. I was having a really good time with them.

Bingung juga mau posting apa. I'm not good as a writer.

Moment paling berharga: Turboplast & Pagelaran.

Betapa niatnya para lelaki untuk latihan bola plastik di Tanah Mas demi menangin Turboplast. Jadi inget masa-masanya nonton futsal di AXC. Inget masa-masa kalah mulu kalo main di AXC tapi Alhamdulillah bisa jadi juara 2 di Turboplast 2010. Kangen pas hectic-hecticnya rapat dimana mana, nagihin uang pagelaran, latihan di SD-nya Sandra yang dapet makan gratis ayam bakar enak :) Rapat dirumah Pak Ketua Asto di Rockwell a.k.a. Kodam Sumur Batu. Ngerekam video dimana mana. Ngerasain angkat-angkat drum, ampli, dll untuk keperluan pagelaran. Bahkan Yaris gw ngerasain ngebawa drum :) Inget waktu sujud syukur di lapangan gara-gara Lencist masuk final. Masa-masanya di kelas ketawa-ketawa doang nggak pernah belajar di barisan belakang.

Kangennya... Maksimal banget.

The truth is. Time is running fast. And it won't turn back.

And our moments, won't come again.

The laughs, will never be the same.

Even the tears, won't be like they used to.

Niatnya mau nulis panjang-panjang tapi gak kuat kayaknya. The feeling already take the control of me, I should turn this laptop off and go to sleep, feel our togetherness again in my sweet dream. I miss us.

Thanks for accepting me as your friend, thanks for letting me in, thanks for all the lesson that you taught me, thanks for everything, even everything is not enough.

Kesan terakhir dari kelas ini: Semoga kelas 12 kita sekelas lagi. You've made a serious mark on my heart, a lovely one :3

Bersatu kita teguh, bercerai kita runtuh.

JULY 26th

2010-07-30T17:18:00.003+07:00

MONDAY, JULY 26th 2010

It was monday and it was 26.

It was our lovely 3rd monthlyversary.I received a bracelet. A hand-made bracelet.
He's so not that type who would do this kind of thing for anyone. And fortunately I'm not just anyone. Thanks to you.

Hai Skulizm

2010-07-29T20:02:00.001+07:00

Sekolah hari ini ruame buanget! Lebay sih... Cuma emang lebih rame dari biasanya karena pulang sekolah ternyata ada acara Hai Skulizm di sekolah gw (SMAN 21). Ada The Trees And The Wild sebagai performer di acara itu (sadly, gw cuma bisa nonton satu lagu karena udah dijemput nyokap hix). Ada Raditya Dika juga sebagai bintang tamu (belom sempet ketemu doi juga, sadly). Ada booth Nokia juga yang bisa ngasih tau seberapa eksis sih elo? Rame!

Nah Hai juga ngadain lomba per kelas yang mengharuskan kita ngisi blog post setiap harinya. Yang paling rame dapet hadiah 1 juta rupiah. And... The winner goes to... XII IPA 2! Tak lain dan tak bukan... Kelas gw sendiri! Yippe! Gak sia-sia foto sekelas abis pulang sekolah. Lumayan jadi model 25rb! (Ceritanya 1 juta dibagi 40 anak). Ya walaupun uangnya gak dibagiin juga sih tapi dialihkan jadi dana buat buka puasa bersama sekelas.

Sejauh ini sekolah cukup menyenangkan. Being a 12 grader is a hard work and the result must be worth it.

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Me-Time

2010-07-25T22:03:00.001+07:00

Move the page, close the book, open the new one.

Nothing special for today, just wanna share about what I did few days ago. It was Wednesday actually.

Skipped school. Woke up earlier to dropped my mom to Gambir. She was going to Cirebon at that time. Then went back home to catch some sleep until 1 PM. I was having a good sleep huh.

Then I woke up again, had nothing to do, so I decided to go for some movie, alone. Inception it was.

When I was having 'me-time', I thought about love. How that could be so unimaginably complicated. Based on the word, it just has four letters for God's sake, even fewer that the world complicated itself. How love could affect many things. And how love could be a reason of why I was losing my weight. And also how love could be the only reason why you and I are related.

Me-time was perfect. I have a thing from myself that I have to repair. It's broken enough to hurt someone else. Name it, ego.

A note for you: I skipped school was only to avoiding you. I need a distraction since the only thing I was thinking about is you.

Goodnight, love.

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Quick update, super quick!

2010-07-19T21:10:00.003+07:00

akhirnya sekolah lagi. setelah liburan sekian lama. hidup gak jelas sebulan, buang-buang uang, tidur makan nggak tepat waktu. super seneng bisa sekolah lagi. getting closer to college. saya sangat excited dengan dunia perkuliahan yang insyaallah akan dilanjutkan di negri lain (doakan saja).

i really need to find an extra course to practice about my english. i really need to get a good score for IELTS. gotta call TBI soon. catch ya later.

this is a super short update!

Will you marry me?

2010-07-12T17:36:00.002+07:00

Menikah. Should I or shouldn't I?

Semua orang pasti pengen nikah. Ada sih beberapa yang mungkin gak pengen (including me), tapi pasti sebagian besar orang pengen nikah. To have someone for eternity. To raise children together. To live happily ever after. Once, I've posted about my dream wedding. Tapi sekarang? I changed my mind. Gw punya cita-cita baru. To live my life by myself without someone called 'husband'. Pengen jadi wanita karir, sukses kerjaan, pensiun muda, buka usaha, keliling dunia. Simpel. (Ya iyalah siapa juga yang gak mau el).

I know I'll change my mind after next one or two months, but this is me now, this is what I'm thinking.

Sebenernya gw bukan orang yang begitu independent even I always force myself to be like that. Gw deket sama seseorang secara instan gw bisa bergantung sama dia. I have a boyfriend now and I'm like counting on him every second (I wish I don't). Tapi gw berusaha banget untuk tidak begitu. I'm working on it. So, I decided not to marry anyone. To live my own life with my own rules, because Joey doesn't share food ; -)

Updating June

2010-06-19T11:48:00.001+07:00

Good morning. Everything seems nice today. 21 CUP is on the move, today is the day before the last day. Finally can bring a trophy for school from my basketball team.

Mood for today is: No mood for today.
Too lazy to wake up but even more to go back to sleep. Last night had such a blast with some friends from my former class. Loving them is too easy for me.

Met some good friends, laughed all night long, played with fire and water, had a tiring yet fun night. Finally can taste the feeling of laughing out loud again. Took lots of picture with my beloved GJ and GM and CCL --> club club lain *HaHa*

And finally met one special guy that I've been missing.

Don't you love your life too much?

A letter to June

2010-06-03T19:36:00.001+07:00

Hey June! Welcome back :)
It's glad to meet you again on this year. Hope you'll treat me nice this year, let's just forget what happened between us last year and start all over again from the very beginning. Please June, don't hurt me bad.
Last year I hate you 1st day of June, but I hope this year I'm going to love you at June 26th ♥

By the way, I have planned my perfect gateway with my friends. We're going to *drumroll* Makassar & Buton! For God's Sake, I'm extremely happy to arrange this gateway. Each day I'm praying & hoping this will turn out to be awesome!

June, please complete my year. My beautiful 2010. I need you to treat me well. 2010 must be my year! Hope we're going well my dear June.
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I//MISS//YOU//SO//MUCH//IT//HURTS

2010-05-23T21:29:00.000+07:00

Do I? Do you?

2010-05-23T20:35:00.002+07:00

The question is "DO YOU COMPLETE ME?"

Sometimes relationship is nonsense. You just become somebody's somebody but it doesn't mean anything. Sometimes when you in a relationship, sometimes love doesn't work there. You just become somebody's somebody. You don't love, you don't care, you don't complete each other.

Well, I'm asking you, DO YOU COMPLETE ME? And I'm asking myself, DO I COMPLETE YOU?

No one perfect. It's math. It's a fact you can't deny. Everyone knows how it works, no one perfect. But that's the only reason why somebody needs somebody. That's the reason why love is exist.

I'm making my own theory.

I'm feeling dumb to made one.

Better go off soon.

Night people.

For those who feeling unwell,

hope you get better soon :--)

Please, stop biting your nails

2010-04-23T19:25:00.002+07:00

dear you,
thanks for sitting next to me everyday
thanks for sharing your earphone
thanks for making my photo as your phone wallpaper
thanks for letting me write "ellya cantik" on your hand
thanks for letting me write "ellya cantik" as your profile
thanks for letting me punch your stomache everyday
also for letting me harm you just because i enjoy doing it :p

thanks for driving me anywhere i ask
thanks for teaching me about math and physic
thanks for giving me those stupid and sweet smiles
thanks for letting me kidnap your phone for couple of hours
thanks for teaching me how to play "going away to college" by guitar
also for forcing you to play baby - justin bieber on tap tap revenge

i love your scent, even it mixed with the smell of cigar & smoke
i love your hair, even its kinda messy
i love your tall body, even you cannot stand up straight
i love your thin foot, even there are too many mark on it
i love your smile, wheter you showing your teeth or not

one thing i'm asking you is just...
please,
stop biting your nails.

thank you,
i love you

Am I worth for the wait?

2010-04-19T21:01:00.002+07:00

what if? the one that you love is belong to someone else?
what if? your best girl in love with someone who loves you?
what if? you are in denial with yourself?

i hate to admit that i'm in self denial. i know it, i feel it, even worse, i chose it. i made some boundaries that i couldn't even obey. my head twisting. you were like the coolest thing on earth but i'm afraid to touch you even just the tip of your nose. i'm afraid for making the wrong movement. but truthfully, i'm afraid of get hurt twice.

reminiscing the old days, back then i used to cry, a lot, about some shit that really unnecessary, i'm afraid it'll happen, more and more or worse and worse. i was young and stupid back then, but if i let myself to fall again, do i even change to be more mature or i drag myself to the same hole?

if i'm asking you to wait, would you wait for me? am i worth for the wait?

Diantara

2010-04-17T22:37:00.002+07:00

mungkin bukan malam ini
yah, walaupun juga bukan kemarin

kita manusia punya banyak kemauan
walau kadang tak masuk akal adanya

aku lelah ada diantara
tetapi memilihpun sulit

hanya takut yang dirasa
walau sepi kian meradang

iya, ini jatuh cinta namanya

Caffeine drives me insane

2010-04-14T22:19:00.002+07:00

I told you.
I like you.
But, I'm not in love with you.
I like you.
Till' the maximum level.
I want to be with you.
But just next to you.
Not as your girl.
Thank you for listening.
Thank you for understanding.

note : just tried the fish eye effect with ma peephole. kinda cute, i guess.

BDAY//HEYDAY//MYDAY

2010-04-13T08:53:00.004+07:00

birth-day means the day when you were born, and you keep on celebrating it for every year.

and here it comes to mine,

actually it was a couple of days ago, april 7th 2010.

and it was the best day that i could ever wished for.

i came to school as usual and having some chit chat with my friends as usual, but suddenly, all my class mates were seems like ignoring me. good, i was all alone. i almost cry to death but i know they did that on purpose, so i have to keep my cool. muahahaha!

time passed and school's time was over, my class mates were still ignoring me so i decided to go home sooner than usual, but suddenly, wina came to me and removed my glasses. oh this is not good! mega held my hand and my friends were all over me and they put something to cover up my face so i can't see through that thing. oh my goodness!

my friends took me to abank's motorcycle and they forced me to get on that thing, which i did it. abank took me to some places with his motorcycle which i don't know where because yeah, my face was still covered up by 'something-i-don't-know'. after 10 minutes or more, finally we arrived at a small park near my school and my friends were there singing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY". i was extremely happy!

they bought me a cake, which is super delicious! but then........... ella throw me an egg. yeah, my face was covered up with eggs, flour, and many things which i'm not sure.

but that was f-u-n. the best birthday ever.

my surprise wasn't only that.

my junior high school's friends came to my house at 9 and sang "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" with mask on their face and candle on their head. it was a surprisingly creative!

they bought me sushi which they made like 17 shape.

such a cute 'cake'.

how can i not like you april 7th?

i'm not going to make a wishlist or birthday resolution but i have another b^day surprise to tell you about

when i was having my birthday party, my friend forced me to came into my room and waited there, which i did it too.

then, when i came out from my room.............

there was a huge box in front of my room, and my friends were singing "HAPPY BIRTHDAY"

when i opened up that box

voila! there was a man inside, and he is abank! he was holding a monkey doll and it was so cute. thank you friends! me loves ya!

this is too sweet :')

i swear i love this year's birthday

this is the sweetest seventeen that a teen ever wished for

How I Miss Blogger!

2010-04-03T20:08:00.002+07:00

long time no write! kangen sekali sama blogspot. kangen ber lebay lebay disini. sekarang jadi jarang ngepost lagi nih huhuhu. sibuk sekali hidup gw lately. udah gitu modem flash juga kandas dibawa si kakak sepupu bernama alfia. jadi ya jarang menyentuh internet dengan laptop. kalo lewat bb mah lanjut teruuuuus. by the way, sekarang kepala gw lagi puyeng banget. darah rendah lagi menyerang. rasanya dahsyat banget aduh aduh.

what date today? april the 3rd! wow, 4 hari menuju sweet tujuhbelasan-nya si ellya nuraisyah! 7 april, gw makin tua setahun, semakin deket sama dunia universitas. dapet ktp, sim, paspor, sama atm sendiri. gw gak merasa begitu spesial, tapi seneng aja udah mau 17 sebentar lagi. semoga pas 7 april hari itu menjadi hari yang menyenangkan. hari hari sebelumnya cukup menyenangkan kok. ya tapi semoga 7 april lebih menyenangkan lagi. dapet banyak ucapan, kado, kejutan, hehehe ngarep banget.

btw, currently i like someone. ya he's the nicest of all. baik-nya keterlaluan. orangnya pinter. ya udah, cuma 2 hal itu doang sih yang bikin gw demen. i told him already that i like him. ya responnya dia diem aja biasa aja. fine for me. i just want to tell him. semakin hari gw jadi semakin gatau malu dan semakin blak blak-an jadi orang. lagian, keeping that feeling is hurting me inside, i prefer let it out. ya gw ngomongnya gak lebay juga. cuma blg "i like you, end of story". i'm not asking for more. if he likes me back, ya alhamdulillah. if he doesn't, ya gapapa. i'm fine :--)

how's school? duh don't talk about that deh. i have no excitement to go to school except to meet my friends. bahkan gw gapernah bawa buku lagi ke sekolah. cuma bawa laptop, bekel, hp, dompet, kunci rumah, anduk kecil. cukup. no books. kadang juga kelupaan bawa bolpen. kacau.

sumpah lagi excited banget sama dunia kuliahan. antara prancis atau belanda nih. gabisa diceritain disini segimana excited-nya. pokoknya excited banget. udahlah, see you on the next post. gw harus melakukan hal hal yang lain dulu nih mumpung ketemu internet. hihihi. bye all ;)

sincerely,
ellya

Not so great Java Jazz Festival

2010-03-06T19:28:00.002+07:00

Went for Java Jazz Festival 2010 last nigh with some friends.
Got a special experience.
My friend, which name is Rian was... what would I say? Collapsed? He felt extremely dizzy, then he lost his balance, and I got to take care of him. I pulled his left hand then took him outside the crowd of John Legend's concert.
Then, I went back in and I lost my euphoria of watching John Legend then I'm out for a drink. Java Jazz this year didn't work for me.

Then, another great thing happened. I lost my friend. So, I was searching all over the places which is so damn huge and I can't even call my friend. Indosat lost it's signal.

I prefer last year show.
I didn't enjoy the John Legend's concert.
Got home at quarter past 2.
Exhausted.
Fun in an awkward way.

Take me. Take me wherever but here.

2010-03-01T18:32:00.002+07:00

Take me. Take me wherever but here.
Home for me now is just a place to sleep and to sorry-ing my self. Seeing that now I'm such a loser who doesn't have any thing to be proud of. Got nothing special to do. Feeling this laziness level to the maximum point. I even lazy just for take some food even I was hungry to death. Yes, that's how bad I am.

But outside home, I feel a huge amount of fun around my friends. Junior high school friends? I love to spend time talking about how our life was, and how our life will be. Senior high school friends? I love to spend time laughing about a guy, and making funny of him, he's such a laugh maker. Today, I just got home from Snow Bay, playing water with my senior high school friends, and it was such a great time. I'd kill myself if I don't have a chance to go with them.

I wish I'd be forever with them. I laughed, I screamed until I hurt my throat and now I'm talking like a witch. Such a pity effect but so what? I want to laugh and scream until I have no voice left. I love them, they're my laugh maker. And I don't have them inside my house. So, truth to be told I hate to staying at home without them.

Enough for today,
Gotta catch some sleep.

My march wish:
Going out with my friends everyday.
Playing with my friends everyday.
Do anything with my friends.
Na'ah whatever.

Btw, I just got my SLR Camera.
It's Nikon D3000 and my mom bought me another lense, it's Tamron AF 70-300.
Thank's Mom.
Thank's God.

(the photo above was taken by Muhammad Naufal Muflih, a friend of mine)

I need a distraction

2010-02-19T19:21:00.002+07:00

Please. I need to get away from this loneliness.
I need a mood charger. I need a 24 hours friend with a non stop talking subject. I need a super fun person who could make me laugh till I can't catch any breathe.
Geez, I'm feeling bored. 10 out of 10.
Eat me. I have nothing to do.
Friends are good at school. Oh, wrong. Friends are terrific at school.
But home? Super silent. Double times. No sister, no brother. It's just me myself only.
I need a distraction.

Lingkaran. Berhubungan. Saling membutuhkan.

2010-02-08T13:40:00.003+07:00

Selamat siang saudara-saudari. Hari ini saya kembali lagi untuk menulis sesuatu.

Mungkin yang bakal gw tulis ini bakalan mengundang suatu permasalah baru. Bakal ada pro dan kontra. Tapi gw harus nulis ini. Harus! Ini adalah suatu pencapaian dalam hidup (lebay sih). Oke, mari kita mulai.

Gw mau nulis tentang IPA dan IPS. Jurusan yang dibagi di SMA. Ada yang dibagi saat memasuki kelas 11 atau 2 SMA. Ada juga yang udah dibagi dari kelas 10 atau 1 SMA.

Selama ini, gw nggak pernah yang namanya membandingkan IPA dan IPS. Menurut gw sama aja. Sama-sama dibutuhin toh. Saling melengkapi. Saling membutuhkan satu sama lain. Gw nggak pernah nganggep kalo IPS itu jelek dan IPA itu bagus. Kalo guru yang membanding bandingkan ya itu lain lagi. Namanya juga orang tua. Kadang berfikiran kolot.

Tapi gw sering menemukan kalo para murid IPS mengatakan "Kami IPS, terus kenapa?". Yah, gapapa. Toh saya nggak mempertanyakan anda IPS atau IPA. Saya baik-baik aja sama kalian semua. Bahkan salah satu sahabat saya masuk IPS dan saya seneng banget karena emang itu bidangnya dia. Dan dia juga pinter. Berarti gak cuma orang bodoh kan yang masuk IPS? Dan gak semua orang pinter ada di IPA kan? Kita semua sama aja, semuanya pinter. Bedanya cuma gimana cara belajar masing-masing aja. Kedisiplinan. Kerajinan.

Untuk lahan pekerjaan. Banyak juga toh murid lulusan IPS yang bisa masuk ke jurusan kedokteran dan akhirnya jadi dokter sukses. Dan itu sangat amat keren. Bukan keren karena dia dokter. Tapi karena dia bisa belajar dalam waktu yang singkat. Terus kenapa kalo anak IPA jadi akuntan? Bukannya itu keren juga? Karena dia juga bisa belajar pelajaran IPS dalam waktu yang singkat.

Semuanya sama aja. Saling membutuhkan. Kita hidup kan kayak lingkaran. Saling berhubungan. Butuh membutuhkan.

Sekian. Harus minum obat dulu nih. Doakan semoga gw cepet sembuh ya. Hehe. Bye folks!

Love doesn't even work for me

2010-02-04T19:31:00.002+07:00

Somehow I feel like I lost my feelings. Gw kayak udah mati rasa atau hampir mungkin. Gw gak pernah lagi merasakan kebahagiaan yang teramat sangat tapi juga gak pernah lagi sedih yang amat sangat. Gak lagi merasakan semangat yang menggebu gebu dan gak lagi merasakan males yang amit-amitan (ehem, yg ini masih sih sebenernya :p). Tapi ya gitu, semuanya jadi hambar. Kayak makan roti tawar gak pake topping apa-apa, bahkan kulit pinggirannya dipotongin juga.

Apa mungkin karena dulu gw sempet euphoria yang kesenengan setengah mati lalu langsung down down down down, download (loetjoe). Ya you know lah down karena apa. Ya gitu deh. Trus sekarang? Setelah semuanya lewat? Ya udah, it seems like I have no feelings at all. Even when I fall in love it doesn't feel like the old times. Gw jadi merasa sangat standar dan merasa hidup gw kayak numpang lewat doang.

Lalu sekarang how to make my life more exciting?
Yang terlintas di otak gw saat ini adalah tidur. Tapi gak ada yang fun dari tidur kecuali bunga tidur atau mimpi. Tapi gimana kalo mimpinya buruk? Gak fun juga. Ya walaupun gw gak bakalan sedih sampe nyilet-nyilet sih kalo mimpi buruk. Btw, kayaknya kata nyilet lagi trend ya. Wohoo! Saya seneng bisa mengikuti trend. Berarti saya trendy. Oke. Kayaknya gw mulai gila.

Gw pengen merasakan euphoria yang seneng sampe mati lagi. Tapi apa yang bisa membuat gw merasa seperti itu? Love doesn't even work for me.

Yang bikin gw paling seneng sekarang mungkin nontonin mukanya Kurapika yang masih 17 tahun (dan akan terus 17 tahun selamanya). Back to Hunter X Hunter. See you soon folks!

Mak, cepet sembuh ya :')

2010-01-28T20:05:00.002+07:00

Gw lama-lama jadi bingung sendiri sama tujuan gw apa. Tujuan gw ke sekolah apa? Belajar? Kalo misalnya belajar, kenyataannya? Gw malah lebih memilih untuk nonton Hunter X Hunter di laptopnya Ali pake headset-nya Fia (curhat dong, headset iPod gw yg baru beli lebaran kemaren udah rusak, bete ah). Ngikutin pelajaran sih iya, tapi ya cuma gitu doang, abis itu juga lupa. Ulangan? Belom ada yang lancar sejauh ini. Kemampuan otak gw makin lama menurun. Gak tau kenapa. Padahal udah gak ada masalah apa-apa. Pacar gapunya, temen juga ga banyak-banyak amat. Masalah keluarga? Belom nikah tuh. Jadi gw kenapa sih sebenernya?

Harusnya sih sekarang belajar biologi sama pkn. Tapi gw gak pernah bisa hafalan, jadi ya udah, ngetik-ngetik aja disini di blog yang gak pernah dibaca orang. Tujuan hidup gw apa? Download film + lagu aja kali banyak-banyak terus jualan mp3 bajakan sama dvd bajakan. Wah, hidup gw penuh dosa banget kayaknya.

Mak gw lagi sakit sekarang, katanya sih gejala dbd dan kecapean gitu. Sama kayak gw waktu itu. Tapi waktu itu gw pas baru putus, sakit begitu, mungkin karena stres kali. Sekarang gw stres? Ngelawak banget. Gak ada masalah apa-apa kayaknya gw. Hidup lancar banget kaya jalan tol, gak ada yang nyebrang jadi gak pake rem deh jalannya (apa sih?).

Gw senin kemaren abis nonton Boys Like Girls, tapi belom sempet bikin post tentang itu. Later deh ya, gak pada nungguin juga kan? Wong gak ada yg baca toh. Hahaha. Gw ini apa sih? Suka kacau sendiri.

Oh iya, tadi gw nangis. Cengeng. Emang. Banget.

Gw sering dikatain sama orang-orang. Ya bukan dikatain yg gimana gitu. Diledekkin gitulah. Just for fun aja. Tapi gw paling gak bisa ada orang yg make fun of my mom. Tapi kalo soal itu kenapa gw gak bisa marah? Padahal gw galak banget loh, kaya setan. Tapi gw gak bisa marah. Gw selalu......... nangis. Cupu. Emang.

Jadi gw tadi nangis gitu karena mak gw diledekkin. Ya siapa lagi sih orang yang pantes gw jagain selain mak gw sendiri. Lo rasain dulu jadi mak gw baru lo katain. Lo kira gampang. Loh, kok ini jadi marah-marah sendiri?

Saya mau kembali ke Biologi sama Pkn deh, tapi mau ngecek mak dulu yang lagi sakit. Doain semoga cepet sembuh ya, anyone who read this. Kalo ada yg baca aja hehe.

Sincerely,

Ellya

A Trip To Kawah Putih

2010-01-22T21:49:00.000+07:00

A trip to Kawah Putih. Simple yet amusing :)

Queen on my world

2010-01-22T21:03:00.004+07:00

Somehow, I lost what best friend means. Now I know is friends only. Not to say that all my friends aren’t nice, but I’m not dare enough to say that “He’s my best friend” or “She’s my best friend”. I lost that mean. I used to say those things, or maybe I used to had them, but now they’re seem invincible. I don’t want to say that they’re gone or what, but I just don’t see them as best friends. Friend is enough to describe what they are.

Well, I’m enjoying these times for myself. I’m totally enjoying this. I got nothing to worry about. It’s all about me and myself only. Sounds selfish maybe, but I don't want to give a damn about what people've been through. And I don't want them to give a damn about what I've been through. Sometimes, I ask for their opinion, but that's it. Nothing more. I want me in my world, I want me to be the only one person to take control in my own life.

It's all coming back to yourself only. You're the one who'll get through whatever world treats you, good or even bad. I'm so enough lay on somebody. I'm so enough being totally stupid back then who lay my hope, or even life on somebody. I really shouldn't did that. I was a total stupid human being.

This is a pointless post.
Got to write something better tomorrow.
See ya folks.

Lebih baik jangan nyusahin orang

2010-01-17T20:56:00.000+07:00

Kemarin, ketemu orang yang berniat untuk bunuh diri. Tiba-tiba perempuan itu lewat di depan mobil saya. Tangannya terbuka lebar seakan berkata "tabrak saya". Awalnya saya pikir dia hendak menyebrang jalan. Tetapi saat kedudukan kami hampir dekat, saya melihat dia menangis. Tapi mengapa harus sampai bunuh diri?

Oke. Terlalu serius omongan gw. Ternyata kejadian kaya gitu beneran ada ya? Gw kaget sendiri. Abis kejadian itu lewat-pun gw masih rada bengong. Padahal lagi nyetir mobil. Untung gak terjadi apa-apa. Serumit apapun masalah, cara menyelesaikannya bukan bunuh diri.

Hmmm. Oke lah kalo emang lo mau bunuh diri. Tapi jangan minta orang nabrak lo. Find another way! Jangan nyusahin orang. Lompat di mall kek dari lantai 5 (minimal, soalnya kalo dari lantai 3 gak bakal mati. Patah tulang doang). Minum baygon mungkin atau parfum? Atau nusuk nusuk diri sendiri? Tapi jangan nyusahin orang. Kalo lo minta ditabrak sama orang, nanti orang itu bisa masuk penjara. Nyu-sa-hin!

Agak aneh ya post gw sekarang. Kayak ngasih pilihan buat bunuh diri gitu. Lebih baik sih jangan bunuh diri. Karena kalo bunuh diri udah pasti masuk neraka. Daripada yg panas mending yg adem --> surga.

Oke sekian dari saya malam ini.
Selamat menikmati!

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Gara-gara sayur lodeh

2010-01-07T18:55:00.002+07:00

kejadian di sekolah semakin menggila.

semakin nikmat rasanya jadi high school-er. isinya ngakak ngakak sampe rahang mau copot doang. belajar sih alhamdulillah lancar. tapi lancaran ngetawain orangnya. ya untuk beberapa pelajaran doang sih lancarnya. kalo agama mah tetep --> dengerin iPod pake headphonenya nopal yang segede kepala orang. gurunya cuek bebek tetep ngajar walaupun setengah kelas dengerin iPod, setengahnya lagi tidur. selamat! ntar kalo pada jadi ustadz sama ustadzah semua, bingung dah pak rosyid.

tadi kejadian yang paling oke adalah "ngerjain mama-nya fia lewat bbm".

ella minjem bb-nya fia dan ketawa ketiwi sendiri. taunya doi nge bbm-in mamanya fia. dan beriku ini adalah chat log antara ibu dan anak.

f (fia): mama, i love you ma. aku kangen mama. maafin fia ya ma.

mf (mama fia): kenapa fi?

f: aku ngerasa banyak salah sama mama. maafin aku ya ma.

mf: kamu kenapa? fia dimana?

f: maaf ya ma, fia udah buang-buang uang mama. fia lagi di kelas. fia dijauhin temen-temen.

mf: kenapa dijauhin temen-temen.

f: soalnya fia makan sayur lodeh.

mf: kok makan sayur lodeh dijauhin temen-temen?

f: soalnya abis makan sayur lodeh mulut fia jadi bau. fia jadi dijauhin temen-temen.

mf: beneran?

abis itu gw sama ella langsung ngasih tau ke fia atas chat diatas. abisan gw gak tahan ngakak berdua sama ella. perut kram, rahang pegal. lebih fun kalo ketawanya barengan sama yang lain. fun!

sekian kegilaan hari ini.

semoga esok hari makin menggila.

dadidu guys!

Gagal sekolah perdana

2010-01-04T19:02:00.003+07:00

Halo semuanya. Selamat malam.
Gimana yang tadi sekolah? Fun-kah?

Hari ini saya gagal sekolah untuk yang perdana di tahun 2010. Karena gw (ehem) cabut untuk nonton Avatar. Avatar yang biru-biru idungnya pesek itu loh. Tau kan? Yang gede punya buntut. Ya pasti taulah semua. Gw aja telat baru nonton. Jadi tadi itu pukul 12.30 gw masuk studio 6 di XXI Mall Kelapa Gading 3 buat nonton Avatar. So last year ya? Bodo deh 2010 juga baru beberapa hari ini. Lagian gw udah nonton Sherlock Holmes woo (sowhat?)

Inti dari filmnya (menurut gw):
- Kalo lo jalan di hutan, ntar pas lo injek tanahnya nyala. Bagus deh. Kaya main di timezone.
- Neytiri itu adalah makhluk pandora paling ngeselin.

Sekian.
Cuma itu pendapat gw tentang film Avatar.

Hahahahaha pendapat yang bodoh ya. Abis daritadi gw kesel sama Neytiri. Udah pesek gitu, terus.... ngeselin lah intinya. Jake Sully itu orang terdodol sedunia. He's a human being gitu, kenapa mau aja berubah jadi makhluk Pandora. Film ini didominasi dengan warna ungu, biru, dan hijau di bagian hutannya.

Oh iya! Ada floating mountain. Kerennya nampol! Jadi gunung tapi melayang di udara gitu. Keren banget-nget-nget-nget. Gw sempet nganga ngeliatnya awalnya (erm, lebay sih). Terus ada waterfall-nya gitu. Tapi ngegantung gitu, bawahnya airnya ya gitu. Duh susah di bilangin, pada nonton aja deh (udah pada nonton kaleee, lo aja telat).

Semoga besok gw bisa masuk sekolah dengan baik. Semoga bisa ngikutin pelajaran dengan baik. Semoga ketemu temen-temen yang baik.

Dadidu guys!

Besok sekolah loh

2010-01-03T10:55:00.003+07:00

Holiday is over dude!

Sebentar lagi masuk sekolah. Bukan sebentar lagi deng tapi besok. B-e-s-o-k. Senin sekolah lagi. Agak kangen dengan segala keteraturannya. Kangen dengan jam makan yang teratur. Teratur mandinya. Teratur pulang dan perginya. Teratur jam belajarnya. Teratur jam tidurnya. Ada yang nggak dikangenin. Yaitu teratur bangun paginya. Gak kangen banget deh sama bangun pagi. Pengennya bangun jam 8 keatas terus setiap harinya. Tapi kangen teratur solatnya juga :p

Sejauh ini 2010 cukup biasa-biasa saja. Pengennya langsung drastis berubah dari 2009 tapi ternyata sama aja. Bangun di kamar yang sama. Makan makanan yang sama. Pergi dengan mobil yang sama. Pake baju yang sama. Semuanya serba sama. Jadi apa tujuannya tahun baru? Gw juga gak tau. Gw taunya sekarang gw lagi ngomong ngasal banget. Gapapa, yang penting asik.

Lagi dengerin Hummingbird - Wanted Some nih. Cool abis lagunya. Gw jadi pengen belajar main gitar. Dari dulu udah sering diajarin. Tapi tetep aja dodol. Pernah les juga malah. Hanya bertahan 3 bulan. Sekarang mau mulai les lagi. Hari kamis besok mau daftar. Gak tau deh ini bisa bertahan berapa lama. Mudah-mudahan bertahan sampe jago. Ya minimal bisa mainin lagu deh. Gak usah jago jago amat yang bisa sampe jadi legenda. Gw pengen bikin lagu. That'll represent me, who I am. Gaya banget ya. Biarin deh. Yang penting asik.

Setiap niat pengen dirumah seharian pasti kebelet pergi-pergi. Pengennya mandi, dandan yang rapih, terus jalan-jalan kemana aja sampe bego. Tapi giliran udah rapih, udah cakep, udah jalan ke tempat tujuan, dan udah sampe. Bingung deh gw mau ngapain. Ujung-ujungnya bilang "pulang aja yuk, kamar gw kayaknya enak banget". Sungguh plin-plan dan ngeselin memang. Ya maklum aja deh. Gw emang orangnya ngeselin :p

Sekarang lagi dengerin Taylor Swift - The Way I Loved You. Bikin pengen punya pacar. Terus aje pengen punya pacar. Laper ah. Makan dulu. Dadidu guys.

2010 <3

2010-01-01T15:21:00.002+07:00

Happy New Year 2010!
I'm counting all my hopes on this year.
Hope 2010 is our year people!

Belajarlah dari dvd yang anda tonton!

2009-12-30T17:34:00.003+07:00

Halo semuanya. I'm back. I don't really care about Google AdsSense, so i'm going to post this in Indonesian.

Sebentar lagi 2010 dateng. Gw merasa 2009 agak lebih lama dari berjalan dari 2008. Mungkin karena beberapa hal yang terjadi di 2009 kurang ngenakin dan 2008 is much better than 2009. Ya namanya juga hidup. Kadang oke kadang nggak. Kadang enjoy, kadang nggak. Untung gw selalu belajar sesuatu. Kalo idup gw mulai acak-acakan dan banyak ngeluh, buru-buru nonton dvd. Dvd drama semacam Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist, Juno, 500 days of summer, Julie & Julia, so on.

Kenapa nonton dvd? Simpel aja, gw selalu belajar dari film yang gw tonton. Kebetulan barusan gw abis nonton Juno. Dang! Sebelum nonton Juno gw adalah makhluk yang HBL total then, after I watched Juno, langsung jadi cuek bebek sama yang namanya urusan jodoh. I don't feel so lucky in 2009 so then, wait until 2010. Gw juga bingung kenapa gw ngomongin jodoh mulu. Mungkin karena everybody needs somebody. Am I right?

Anyway, 2010 is coming. Mudah-mudahan di tahun 2010 nanti gw akan:

Rajin solat. Rajin puasa. Rajin dzikir. Rajin baca qur'an. Mendekatkan diri ke Allah SWT. Sukur-sukur kalo udah dikasih kekuatan hati untuk pake jilbab. Amin.
Lancar jodoh. Yang kurus, tinggi, ganteng, pinter, jago main gitar, bisa nyanyi, punya band, bertanggung jawab, tidak sombong, dan rajin menabung.
Serius ikut les graphic design + les gitar. Biar punya banyak kerjaan jadi gak ngerepotin mamak minta diajak ke sency mulu.
Punya banyak temen yang menerima saya apa adanya. Yang enjoy diajak kemana aja. Yang bisa diajak fun bareng. Yang bisa diajak susah bareng juga. Yang asik-asik lah pokoknya.
Pindah rumah ke deket rumahnya Vania yang minimalis tapi kamarnya gede-gede supaya di dalem kamar bisa dibikin kolam renang kecil-kecilan.
Ngurangin asal ngomong, lebih serius dalam segala urusan.
Kurangin males. Banyakkin rajin.
Kurangin utang. Banyakkin uang.
Sekian

Pokoknya moto hidup gw : Belajarlah dari dvd drama yang anda tonton.

Best friends night out

2009-12-27T09:58:00.004+07:00

Another hang out time with old friends feels so damn good. Spent the last day of saturday night on 2009 with best friends was such a good time. Took lots of photo yesterday. Had lots of laugh. And swore a thousand time :p Best friends time is the best time in 2009 for me. Totally.

So what's your new year's resolution?

Me? More laugh and less cry. More friend and less enemy. New boyfriend of course :p Good mark on school stuff. Hopefully, can get into some competition about art and design. And so whatsoever.

So what's another thing I'm going to write? I don't really know.

Just lemme spend this Sunday with peace at home.

Love ya!

Go check them out

2009-12-25T18:04:00.001+07:00

Yesterday hung out with Hummingbird. Quite fun. Just check them out http://myspace.com/gohummingbird. They have two new songs. Very good! You should've listen. Or maybe come to their show sometimes. Have fun with their songs. I'm out ppl!

Holiday and it's stuff

2009-12-21T21:38:00.002+07:00

I'm feeling like post something about holiday.

HOLIDAY!

In my dictionary. It means: a perfect time to spend with your closest people and do some things fun.

And the fact of holiday is: boring.

Well, not really. But.... I spend most of my holiday at home just watching some lame dvd(s). Hmm, I do some hang out (mostly with my mom) and it's quite fun. But I want vacation! I want to do some trip. I don't care which it's in this country or even better out. I want to go to the beach or mountain (Erm, I prefer beach). Well, I've spent many many many days at home and in this beautiful holiday, can I spend at another place? Okay, you can't El.

Thank God, tomorrow I have something to do. Me and my friends (err, actually not my friends because I don't know them) from Bintang Pelajar will go to Kandang Jurang Doank. We're going to do some sport activities. I hope it's going to be fun even I'm going with the unknown. It's like, I'm going with bunch of people I don't know. But, I don't really care. I can make friends. Can't I? Yes, you can El. Beside that, I still have my best friends (iPod and Blackberry).

Tomorrow I have to wake up at 6 a.m. and now I haven't felt sleepy yet. I still want to do some things with my laptop. I'm starving but I can't eat at this time. I ate so many things today, I can't eat another food at night. Because I'll grow bigger and bigger and at one point I'll explode. Duar!

About my single-ness. I'm not jealous of anyone who has a boyfriend, but my mom. At night she's always call my dad and it makes me jealous a thousand times. D'oh!

Enough for today. Hope this week is going to be a nice week. 2010 is coming, everyone! Can't wait. Really can't wait. I always excited for new year :3

Bye friends!

CUPFACE

2009-12-20T21:47:00.002+07:00

It's like I'm extremely bored and all I can do is just draw this stupid CUPFACE

Loads of crap is what I wrote about

2009-12-18T17:18:00.003+07:00

I'm thinking about doing something with my blog. Doing something a bit meaningful. I mean not just writing about some craps and some of my daily activities who actually not really fun. I want to write more. Something more inspiring. Something more fun.

I'm doing this blogging thing for like almost two years. But I've lost my first blog. I accidentally clicked the delete option. Which I really regret. It's so me. I put everything into it. My good times, my bad times, my ex lover, my whole world. I can write 10-20 posts a month. Isn't it cool? But now I realize that I wrote 10-20 nonsenses a month.

It's like I had nothing to do, then I wrote crap on my blog.

Like this time.

Gosh, I need to think what subject I can write about. A cool one.

But what? Hello?

Please somebody, tell me an idea. An idea about what am I going to write in this lame blog. Fyuh, I guess I'm bad at writing. Should I just delete this blog instead?

You Know Who

2009-12-13T19:07:00.003+07:00

1-st question. Priorities in your life:

1: PRIDE

2: LOVE

3: CAREER

4: FAMILY

5: MONEY

2-nd question:

Cute --> implies your own personality

Lazy --> implies personality of your partner

Stink --> implies the personality of you enemies

Relaxing --> it is how you interpret sex

Waves --> implies your own life

3-rd question:

Vania --> Someone you will never forget

Franz --> Someone you consider your true friend

You-Know-Who --> Someone that you really love

Ellen --> Your twin soul

Nadia --> Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life

You-Know-Who?

They got no clue

2009-12-12T09:35:00.003+07:00

If they're older than you, doesn't mean that they're wiser than you.

Well, something happened and it's not like what we wanted.

Some people acted the way that you don't like.

Some people acted really bitchy.

Some people messed your life.

But that's how this life works.

You need to settle down you feeling.

Just take a deep breathe and lose it.

Let stupid people do their own business --> Ruining your life.

Let stupid people do their own business --> Shouting you the bad word that actually refers to herself/himself.

Stupid people cursing you the bad words that actually describe themselves.

#D

2009-12-07T19:24:00.003+07:00

Just got back from Training Camp and I got no picture to post cause I didn't bring my camera. By the way, I got so many scars on my body. Yeah, some scratches and my bones feel extremely hurt when I swing them.

The training camp was so damn great and I'm feeling like miss those moments. But honestly, I don't miss the bathing session. I do love my own bathroom. But I want another basketball time, another team time, another outbound time. For God's sake, I miss those. Fyi, my team got the best team. We got the first winner and got the gold medals (fake one :p).

How's life? Not so great because of my exam's score. Screw it. Like I care of those mark? Seriously, don't. If I can, I would choose the remedial things. I don't even study for that thing. Please, I was studying so hard for my exam, do I need to study harder for remedial? My brain has reach its limit ya know. Stop talking about school. School is sick. I just come for wasting my unimportant times.

How's love life? Well, I don't have anyone now. And I have no crush to anyone. And it feels great. Well, I guess I just wait until someone come to my face and tell me how much he loves me. Sounds great huh? Just pray for me, I'll have someone soon :p Someone who's totally great for me.

Well, that's all I want to write about. Nothing important by the way. I just need to take more times to sleep. 24 hours more, I guess.

See ya readers. (Well, I hope I have some people who I may call "readers")

Sincerely,
Ellya

If, Guess, Hope

2009-11-28T19:37:00.002+07:00

If you love someone, you want him to look after you, take care of you, talk to you, or just stare at you.

If you love someone, you expect him to see what's in you, see the good inside you.

If you love someone, you wish him to be next to you, to always be there, even in silence.

If you love someone, you will let him happy for whatever he chooses.

I guess I like someone.

But, I guess he doesn't.

I guess I like someone.

Even we never officially talk.

I guess I like someone.

Even the longest conversation we had just about 20 minutes.

I guess I like someone.

Even he just can answer my question without asking me back.

I guess I like someone.

But I don't feel so right about us.

I guess I like someone.

But we're different human being.

I hope.

I don't lose him this time.

Hope we can work these things out.

I hope.

Even in silence.

I still can hear his voice.

Calling my name.

I hope.

I won't get hurt.

And he won't get hurt either.

Just so you know, I like you too much

2009-11-28T06:59:00.003+07:00

I wish that we have the 'sting' between us.

I wish that you like me the way I do.

I wish that you'd be here with me.

I wish that we're okay.

Sometimes, you need back ups

2009-11-22T16:27:00.002+07:00

I went out just to get some foods and a cup of coffee.

On my way out there I've been thinking.

Do I need a person called boyfriend?

I watch a movie a half way (haven't done it when I was on my way out), it says

"Life is just like a tv show. Guests come and go, but finally you end up alone"

That's true.

You're best friends is yourself. So why do you need anyone else?

I'm having such a good time with myself. Sufring on the internet. Reading some books. Enjoying a cup of latte. Watching Dvds. Sleeping without anyone buzzing me off. So do I need anyone to disturb me? The answer must be "No". A big NO.

But when I reached home. I continued watching the movie that I haven't finished it yet.

It says "Couples aren't future. You need back ups."

So if two persons aren't enough.

Then just alone is completely not enough too.

This makes me thinking.

Keep thinking...

Until I publish this post,

I still don't know what is the best answer.

I'm Happy For You, Nad!

2009-11-19T21:10:00.006+07:00

CONGRATULATION NADIA :)

I'M TOTALLY HAPPY FOR YOU

HOPE YOU BOTH HAPPY TOGETHER

Matchmaking Website is Completely Insane

2009-11-18T19:47:00.003+07:00

Today I typed your name on the website of matchmaking. I just want to find out how many percent we match? Do we really perfectly fit for each other. I was so afraid to type your name. I was too afraid to get the disappointment that me and you aren't fit for each other. Then, my friends forced me to type your name, next to mine. Then, I typed. And I typed my named. And also press the calculate button.

The result was

96%

Well, I don't know how to feel. Do I need to happy or maybe sad? Is that true? Are we so 96% perfect for each other.

I went to the next level of the game.

Find out how many percent we fit from the birthdate.

I filled your birthday and mine also.

I pressed the calculate button.

And the result was

10%

Are you mocking me? I hate you dear matchmaking website.

And I went to the last level.

Find out how many percent we fit from the astrology.

I choosed your astrology.

Then I choosed mine.

I pressed the calculate button.

And the result was

100%

This is insane.

Do I have to trust this thing?

Do I Like You, Mysterious Boy?

2009-11-17T18:16:00.003+07:00

What does it feels to like someone?

Because I think, I like someone now.

And I don't know the best way to describe how I feel.

I haven't officially met him yet.

We do the chat thing through messenger.

I've seen him for couple times.

He also has seen me for couple times.

He's smart.

He's a young talented guy.

He has a weird sense of humor.

He's very thoughtful.

He's quite handsome (err.... let me say just good looking).

He's just exactly the guy I like.

Well boy, I'm not asking you to like me back.

>>I'm listening to HardRock FM >>I Just Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Buble

Pelantikkan Object 2009

2009-11-16T19:27:00.002+07:00

Sabtu kemaren, dateng ke sekolah jam 5 pagi cuma buat ngelantik adek-adek kelas object. Quite fun :)

Semuanya berjalan lancar-lancar aja sampe ke bagian argumen gitu.

Gue sebagai kakak kelas yang harus akting galak diharuskan nanya penuh emosi ke adek kelasnya. Gue memberikan pertanyaan-pertanyaan yang membangkitkan emosi, such as

"Lo ngerasa pantes masuk object?"

"Lo ngerasa diri lo kreatif?"

"Gue sih nggak butuh lo, lo ngerasa di butuhin di object?"

>>Kacau kan. Kalo gue yang ditanyain gitu bisa hancur lebur hati gue.

Setelah argumen, ada yang namanya prosesi.

Nah prosesi itu tuh yang ngasih tau hasil lulus atau nggak-nya anak si bocah-bocah ini untuk jadi anak object. Gue dan temen-temen gue akting. Bilang kalo ada 4 orang yang nggak lulus (same old story, gak pernah berubah drama-nya -__-). One of them ada yang namanya Daniella. Nah kertas kontrak sebagai anak object-nya tuh dirobek gitu.

Sumpah gue nulis bohong-bohongan di kertas kosong nama "Daniella". Gue nggak tau kalo ternyata ada beneran yang namanya Daniella.

Gw bilang "eh, ada yang namanya Daniella tuh yang nggak lulus. Tuh udah gue kasih tau satu orang, 3-nya lagi ya lo pikir aja sendiri."

Eh....... Si Daniella-nya nangis! Ya ampun gak kepikiran sampe kaya gitu.

Finally, semua dibilang kalo lulus dan disiram gitu.

>>Daniella, maaf ya. Cuma bercanda kok :D

..rainy day, hmm i love the smell

2009-11-13T19:14:00.005+07:00

I love rainy season

I love rain

I love raindrops

I love the smell when rain meets ground

I love the smell after rain has come

I love the smell of grass that come out with rain

I enjoy a cup of coffee in rain

I enjoy a bowl of noodle in rain

I enjoy a plate of pancake in rain

I just love rain after all :)

..500 days of summer and a day of autumn

2009-11-08T19:47:00.001+07:00

The most unpredictable ending movie I've ever seen....

You shud watch

Five stars

..karaoke-ing!

2009-11-06T23:54:00.001+07:00

Hari ini karaokean sampe bego trus sampe pinter lagi.

Songlist :
Mari bercinta - aura kasih
Human - the killers
Januari - glen fredly
Shut up and let me go - tingtings
Suara - lunmay dide
Listen - beyonce
Gives you hell - AAR
1,2,3,4 - plain white t's
I gotta feelin - bep
Sorry blame it on me - akon
A whole new world
Viva la vida - coldplay
Always be my baby - david cook
I know u want me - pitbull
Good girls go bad - cobra leighton
Goodnight2 - hot2heat
I miss you - blink 182
Poker face - lady gaga
Just dance - lady gaga
Eh eh - lady gaga
My happy ending - avril
Here in ur arms - hellogoodbye
4 minutes - justin
The fear - lily allen
Malu tapi mau - gita gutawa
Dia - maliq
Biarlah - soulvibe
Online - saykoji
Low - t-pain
Mad - neyo
Thunder - boyslikegirls

Fotonya menyusul!
Betewe tadi nonton Alexa! YooHoo!!!
Ada fotonya juga!!
Dekeeeeet!!
Gw yang foto loh hihi :3

Alexa - Dewi (reminding me of someone hixhix)

Today's theme : reminiscing (antara teman lama juga pacar lama xixixi)

Nite all! Ngantuk tu dha maxxxx

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..best friends?

2009-11-05T19:44:00.001+07:00

Tadi pelajaran bimbingan konseling.
Tentang pertemanan.
Gw disuruh gambar.
Disuruh 2 gambar.

Gambar pertama :
Pertemanan yang diinginkan.
Gw gambar.
3 orang botak.
Tiga-tiganya lagi ketawa ngakak.

Gambar kedua :
Pertemanan yang terjadi saat ini.
Gw gambar.
3 orang botak.
Yang 2 lagi ngakak, yang satu lg bermuram durja.

Real life, sometimes shit happens

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A Parrot

2009-10-30T18:54:00.000+07:00

This is what I've done during Physics Lesson. Lumayan............

My Monkey Is Not As Cute As You

2009-10-27T16:52:00.002+07:00

Took the tickets of Java Soulnation from Ellen's friend named Leo then went for Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs and finally we're chilling at Starbucks. Gossiping & also swearing :p

I'm done pretending

2009-10-26T18:37:00.001+07:00

I'm sick

I'm done pretending

In fact,

I miss you

still............

Dance to remember, Dance to forget

2009-10-23T20:49:00.003+07:00

BEFORE

AFTER

Done something on my zara's shirt. Nekat ya? Karena baju ini udah kelunturan dan di wantex sama embak gw. Bete. I won't wear it, so I modified it so I'd wear it.

What do you think?

M&M (Monster & Monkey)

2009-10-22T20:06:00.003+07:00

We talked a lot. About who? About two persons, who were best friends. Who were ours. Two idiots. Two persons with lots of similarity. They're who transform into someone we don't want to.

Dan tak lupa bergossip tentang artis dan juga beberapa orang sekitar nyuhuhuhuh~

Overall.........GREAT

2009-10-21T18:33:00.006+07:00

Today was..................ultra

Ultra STRESS

Ultra FUN

Ultra EXHAUSTED

Why STRESS?

Because I hit someone's car. He asked me to pay for the damage. But finally he let me go. Maybe he felt sorry for me ngix ngix.

Why FUN?

Because me and my friends (X6 + Raymond) went to SnowBay!! Yay yay yay super yay! We all had so much fun with the games there. My skin? Don't ask! It turns grey so I look like alay lampu merah. hixhix.

Why EXHAUSTED?

Because I drove to TMII by myself and went back home and also went to Ella's house and also 'nganterin' bocah bocah (asto, razan, rian, muhai) to McD Duren Sawit. And when I got home......... TA-DA! I have to go to BP for chemistry extra lesson. nguk nguk.

Overall, today was GREAT

I Need No Driving License

2009-10-18T15:27:00.003+07:00

Kemaren gw ditilang O_o

Karena muter di puteran depan plaza senayan. Kan harusnya gak boleh muter tuh. Eh gw malah muter. Udah nanya kan sama nyokap "muter gak nih disini? apa di depan aja?" kata nyokap gw muter disini aja. Trs kan gw kagok gitu jadi belakang gw klakson2. Bego sih lo klakson2. Kan jadinya ketauan muter sama polisinya. Sukurin lo kena tilang juga. Hihi.

Gw disuruh minggir kan di depan PS. Karena gw gak punya sim. Gw langsung loncat ke belakang! Nyokap gw pindah ke belakang stir. Untung polisinya gak tau. Trs yaudah dikasih surat tilang. Sim nyokap gw di sita hahaha. Akhirnya nyokap gw nelfn temennya yang polisi (gegana).

Setelah ngobrol di telfn, dapat disimpulkan bahwa :

-SIM itu gak penting. Kalo ditilang lagi, suruh aja polisinya ngobrol sama temen nyokap gw itu. Selesai deh urusannya. Jadi sekarang gw boleh pergi tanpa SIM! Yahuuuu~

Worst Day Of Mine

2009-10-17T19:02:00.003+07:00

Today's done.

Bad day.

Bad driver.

Lost my mom driving license.

Failed to change my macbook's ram.

Failed to upgrade my macbook to snow leopard.

Left my sushi tei card at car.

Late to came to the cinema.

Waited my friend too long.

Stuck in the traffic.

Got home late (not actually late, it's 7 o clock).

Bye Good Day of Saturday~

My Wedding Ceremony

2009-10-16T19:29:00.004+07:00

Di jalan pulang gw ngomongin soal resepsi pernikahan sama nyokap. Awalnya sih gara-gara ntar temen nyokap ada yang mau ngawinin anaknya gitu. Finally, gw jait dress juga buat kondangan. I don't have any! Huhu kasian. I'm going to make a LBD :) Oh iya back to resepsi pernikahan. Now, I'm thinking about mine yuhuuuu so excited hahaha buru-buru banget gak sih gw masih 16 tahun gitu.

Rencananya gw cuma pengen nikah di rumah. Rumahnya di dekor sedemikian rupa supaya mewah dan temanya itu putih lace gitu dekornya. And I will wear a very glamour white kebaya (must be so awesome!). Gw mau bikin acara nikahan gw yang khidmat dan personal. Gw cuma mau ngundang kurang lebih 50 orang terdekat gw. I'm not going to invite lots of my family because it seems useless. Gw gak kenal kenal amat gitu sama saudara gw sendiri, I'm sorry. Gw mau acaranya simpel tanpa acara adat apapun. Ya nikah secara islam dan negara biasa aja gitu.

Talking about the foods.......... Gw akan menyewa katering paling enak dan paling mewah (the price is doesn't matter karena yang gw undang orangnya cuma dikit ini hahahaha). Dan gw pasti akan mengikutsertakan SUSHI sebagai hidangan di acara nikahan gw. Yep, SU-SHI! (pasti banyak yang ngarep diundang deh hahahahaha ce ce ce). Salmon mentai, salmon sushi, uuuu pasti enak banget deh.

I hope

In my wedding ceremony

I'll be the prettiest girl

And my man

Will be

The most handsome guy

And we're perfectly fit each other

And live our life

Together

For the rest

Of our life

Amen

..i'm going to THROW this away

2009-10-13T20:15:00.003+07:00

I have to say this is the sweetest birthday present ever and he gave me in perfect way

Got to move this thing to trash bin

Bye bye

I'm Going To Face College

2009-10-13T18:43:00.002+07:00

I'm going to face college in more than a year and a half. I really wish that I'd go to fsrd-itb. But my mom seems doesn't want me to. She said 'kamu beneran suka gambar? kamu paling ikut-ikutan temen kamu doang biar dibilang keren.' Mom, you know what? I've been drawing since I was in kindergarten. Gw selalu ikut kompetisi gambar dan mewarnai semenjak kecil. And then, pada suatu hari, my mom came to my room and saw me while i was drawing and she said 'kamu bs gambar juga? gambar kamu bagus juga ya.' (and it was just a few days ago -_-").

Guru bp gw bilang ke gw kalo gw ada bakat gambar. Bagusan kalo gw terusin ke jurusan design. Biar gw kuliahnya enjoy. And finally hobby makes money. Guru bp baru gw loh.......... dan nyokap gw yang udah dari dulu sama gw baru tau kalo gw suka gambar (o mama, kemana aja kamu selama ini?).

Gw disuruh masuk teknik informatika. Sementara itu jurusannya emang lagi nge-hip kan sekarang. Trus kenapa gw yang dibilang ikut-ikutan sih? Gw dari dulu gitu suka gambarnya. Nah dia gitu yang ikut-ikutan orang sampe nyuruh-nyuruh gw masuk IT.

Halo, disini saya bingung. What shud I do?

How I Love To Be Me

2009-10-11T21:01:00.003+07:00

Well, I'm not sad of being un-pretty. I'm not shy to look into the mirror and looking to my face. Hell yeah, I'm not pretty. I don't care which my face is too dry or too oily or whatever. I don't see that myself perfect. But at least, inside my heart, I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want to see anybody hurts because of me. I wanna make anyone happy. Happy because of my attention. Happy because of my act. Happy that I'm around.
And thank God, I have this smart brain. Well, maybe I'm not the smartest person in my class. But at least, I'm good on every subject. I'm a fast learner. And I have a big curiosity (in positive way).

Thanks God, for made me this way. For made me like this. I'm so grateful to be like this. I know this is the best for me. Thanks God :D

Traffic Jam

2009-10-11T20:33:00.002+07:00

Last night, I went back from Kelapa Gading. And I was caught in a traffic jam. I was riding a taxi and it cost Rp111.500,-. And it took 2 and a half hour to get home. What a 'wonderful' night, fellas? I wish I'd drive my car, I shouldn't pay that much! Can't wait for April 2010 to get my driving licence.

Miss, Missed, Missing, Misses

2009-09-30T20:26:00.005+07:00

Miss
Missed, missing, misses
(n)
1. kegagalan menangkap, memukul, dan sebagainya
2. nona
3. anak gadis
4. panggilan untuk guru wanita atau pelayan toko wanita
(vt), (vi)
1. tidak kena ; meleset
2. kehilangan kesempatan
3. tidak mendengar, melihat
4. merindukan
5. ketinggalan

those are what 'miss' mean based on my alfa link
miss? do i miss someone? do i miss something? (i'm talking about miss in the bold word means)
after something bad happened to me. the worst one. the one thing that needs the longest time to recovery. now, i guess i lost what miss means. i miss nothing rite now.
like if i'm remembering about my junior high school time, yeah i miss it. but, not from my heart. i guess it's over and it's done.
what else? like if i haven't met my friend such a very long time, yeah i miss he/she. but, it's okay. we can meet in another time.

i guess i lost my heart
and i don't know where i can found it

<3<3<3

2009-09-27T22:49:00.002+07:00

I loved you once
and I won't regret
You loved me once
and you won't forget

I won't bite
I just want to kiss
Because I miss

Minal Aidin

2009-09-24T11:42:00.005+07:00

makan nasi sama ikan patin
sambil nonton cinta fitri
minal aidin wal faidzin
mari kembali ke hati yg fitri

(maaf terlamabat, baru nyentuh laptop sekarang yang ada internetnya. dan sangat males posting lewat bb)

by the way, mama ulang tahun hari ini. happy birthday mom. loveya!

We're just having some trouble in sleeping

2009-09-17T02:55:00.006+07:00

We're just having some trouble in sleeping. So we're just fooling around. Surfing and taking some pictures. And gossiping also. What a nice sleepover even we're not sleeping. Obviously.

Art, Boots, Harddisk

2009-09-15T19:29:00.004+07:00

Envying those pictures above. I wish I'd draw beautifully just like those pictures. I really want to learn how to draw and wish that I could have magic hands so I can draw just like 'em. By the way, currently I'm loving a song called Someday by Nina. By the way now I'm craving for a new pair of boots. One from here and another one from here. And also craving for a new balenciaga bag and it must comes in black. Another wish I want is a new portable hardisk. Using a flashdisk in low capacity really irritating. I really wish for a new portable hardisk. Huhu. Someone please buy me one. I got no money left since I spend them all for a pair of zara denim leggings. But I won't regret it cause it makes my legs look adorable. Gotta save more money for another zara denim :)

By the way, in order to gain more weight. I have a new plan now. I will buy junk foods everytime I want to eat. I just bought a Burger King Beefacoon for break fasting and it tasted like heaven. Bacon, ummm yummy! And I'll drink my milk twice a day. I will do anything to gain more weight to this skinny body.

New Mew New

2009-09-14T18:02:00.003+07:00

Just bought a pair of trf denim leggings and a new shirt also from trf zara. Love love love. Thank you mom! (walaupun patungan dan gw bayar 200.000,-). Menyenangkan sekali punya celana baru dan baju baru hehe.
Kata mamanya Vania, gw makin kurus dan lurus. Oh my gawd. Ini berita buruk -.-"
Ada ide gimana caranya biar gendut? Gw mau 54!

Whattablast

2009-09-11T21:27:00.002+07:00

Had a wonderful day today. My best girl birthday! <3 and also the best break fasting ever. Mihiiii~ Udah gatau mau ngomong apa. Capek to the maxxxx. Bete banget gajadi ikut sotr. Ngambek

Birthday, I miss you

2009-09-08T22:18:00.005+07:00

I. MISS. MY. BIRTHDAY.

ESP. WHEN I TURNED TO 15.

BUT THESE ARE PICTURES WHEN I TURNED TO 16.

DEADLY MISSING MY BIRTHDAY.

I JUST NEED ANOTHER BIRTHDAY.

I WANNA GROW UP.

The simplest song

2009-09-04T08:05:00.002+07:00

I'm not a musician who can make a song a day

I ain't a supermodel who looks great on every condition

Nor an actrees who can hide my tears for a smile

This is me, as simple as it shoud be

I'm fine to be huge or even tiny

I'm okay to be geek when I want to be popular

I got no thousand friends on my facebook's friends list

Even I don't know how to activate my myspace account

I'm listening to music not making them

I'm reading to magazine not writing them

I'm watching movie not playing them

I'm not a dancer but I'm jaming all the way

I'm not a lover but I love you all the way

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Earthquake

2009-09-02T21:38:00.002+07:00

Hari ini ke sencyyyyyy. Again and again gw ke sency tanpa ada bosen bosennya. Bersama mamaku tercinta karena hari ini adalah hari kebebasan kami. Diantara kami berdua tidak ada yang melaksankan puasa karena tamu bulanan. Jadi tujuan kami hari ini adalah sency untuk memakan sushi tei (again and again tanpa bosan) dan nonton bersama. Jadi sering nonton nich gw sama nyokap. Gapapa deh, asik!

Skip cerita gak penting.
Yang penting adalah :

1. GUA BELI IPOD DONG! (norak)
Iya gw dibeliin iPod nano chromatic yang warna hijau (tadi sempet stres ringan karena bingung milih ijo apa biru tua). Sama hardcasenya (walaupun nyokap gw sedih gitu ngeliat harga hardcasenya 200rb, coba gw nurut yang 89rb. Tapi gw keukeuh sama yang 200rb haha jahat).

2. GEMPA BUMI DAN SAYA LAGI NONTON THE PROPOSAL
Gw kira ada yang goyang2in kursi gw. Udah mau ngamuk aja taunya sebioskop juga ngerasa goyang. Orang orang pada lari teriak allahuakbar keluar haha gua nonton aja sama nyokap. Tapi akhirnya memutuskan untuk keluar juga sih. Terus gw turun kan sama nyokap. Tapi masa pulang sih? Akhirnya gempanya berenti. Yauda gw sama nyokap langsung keatas lagi balik nonton hahahaha gila ya. Akhirnya gw nonton dengan tenang dan cuma ber4 :3

lanjut ntar lagi ah. lemot nih laptopnya -_-

BYE BYE SADNESS!!

2009-09-01T18:22:00.002+07:00

Just read this on my friend's blog. She's so cool, she's so strong, and I gotta learn from her.
Now, I'm good. But, not great yet.
Just need a little bit more time to be great.
I think, not only great but wonderful!
By the way boy, I'm not gonna forget you like you do to me.
But, I'm not going to regret that you broke up with me.
You're the best thing I ever had.
But I'm sure that I'm going to have better one someday.

Maybe I'm not that pretty.
I'm way too skinny, I don't have a sexy body.
My hair doesn't goes well.
My skin isn't that white.
I got no perfect nose (erm, actually, my nose is perfect! HA-HA. Is that okay to compliment myself?)
My lips ain't sexy.
But hell yeah, I don't care!
I'm still do looks good on the mirror.
I'm still do looks good on real life.
And I'll be on my best looks if you meet me :)

Thank you for broke up with me.
It made me stronger.
I used to be a baby when I'm with you.
I was relying on you.
And it was the stupidest thing in my entire life.
I'm independent.
I'm okay (even, in real condition I'm in flu now)

Bye bye sadness!

With love,
Ellya :)

The deepest secret

2009-08-31T08:11:00.001+07:00

Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
Here is the root of the root
And the bud of the bud
And the sky of the sky
Of a tree called life
Which grows higher than
The soul can hope
Or mind can hide
And this is the wonder
That's keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart
I carry it in my heart

I Carry Your Heart With Me - E. E. Cummings
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I won't make it

2009-08-27T08:43:00.001+07:00

Its over for us
I drove for 100 miles
And now I'm stuck
There's no U turn
So I just need to stop

When April comes
Just tell your mom
That I can't make it
I won't be there
For another birthday

*
Sing for me now
Until your one last breathe
Just sing with me
For one last word
Until I get sleep

When the end of December comes
Just tell your mom
That I won't be there
I can't be with you
For another new years eve

*
Sing for me now
Until your one last breathe
Just sing with me
For one last word
Until I get sleep

And I know when December comes
I'm sure you won't be here
I know you're not coming
If its just a birthday

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Diamond

2009-08-26T18:40:00.001+07:00

A good friend of mine
Diniella Putirani Muchtar
xoxo

Everything happens for a reason

2009-08-25T10:36:00.000+07:00

Once a wise woman said "Tuhan itu adil dengan nggak selalu mengabulkan apa yang kita minta. Kalo si A minta panas, si B minta hujan, nanti bingung kan jadinya gimana."

It made me think, maybe he asks God to let his feeling to me gone. Maybe he asks God to seperate our love. Maybe that what he wants.
So if I want if we back, it can't be. Nggak bakalan nyambung.

Jadi sekarang mending terima aja apa yang ada.

Kalo katanya Amanda Bynes "I'm a type of person who believe that everything happens for a reason, and at a time, and it supposed to be like that."

Jadi kaya judul blog gue yang dulu "Everything happens for a reason."

Sincerely,
Ellya

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Kamu

2009-08-24T19:53:00.002+07:00

Kamu gak suka pisang
Kamu sukanya warna biru
Kamu gak begitu suka cewe yang poninya rata
Kamu sukanya cewe rambut pendek
Kamu kalo tidur lampunya nyala
Bukan karena takut
Tapi enak aja
Kamu kalo tidur bantalnya dua
Satu dibawah kepala
Satu diatas kepala
Biar kamu gak suka pisang
Atau malah takut sama pisang
Tapi kamu suka sirup pisang susu
Karena kata kamu ga ada rasa pisangnya
Kamu gak berani ngelewatin toko buah yang pisangnya digantung
Tapi kalo sunpride gak apa apa
Karena gak ada baunya, menurut kamu
Kamu kalo beli apa apa biasanya nabung dulu
Tapi pengen juga sih langsung dibeliin sama bapak
Kamu yang paling deket sama Ridwan
Kamu kalo makan pasti nasinya banyak banget tapi lauknya dikit
Kamu sering banget minum air putih
Kamu tapi gak doyan sayur
Tapi kamu suka wortel kok
Kamu belom pernah makan anggur, rambutan, dan beberapa buah lainnya
Walaupun buah itu wajar sebenernya
Tapi kamu pernah makan pisang
Sekali doang
Waktu kecil
Kamu paling ganteng kalo pake polo shirt biru tua
Kamu..........................................

There're too many things I want to write about you
Things that I've learnt about you for a year and half

:'(

2009-08-22T15:41:00.002+07:00

If now you're gone with someone else
Let me know
I want to tell her some things about you

Biarpun aku gak afal ukuran baju kamu
Tapi aku tau yang cocok buat warna kulit kamu
Biarpun aku gak afal ukuran sepatu kamu
Tapi aku tau yang mana yg kamu lagi pengen
Biar aku gak hafal minus kamu berapa
Tapi aku tau kacamat yang cocok buat muka kamu

Biar aku gak bisa masak
Tapi aku tau kamu suka makanan apa
Biarpun kamu gak ngasih tau aku
Tapi aku tau apa yang kamu lg rasain

So for your new girl,
Tell her to meet me
To learn how to know you better
To learn how to love you better than I did

A Man in My Life

2009-08-17T05:55:00.000+07:00

We talk just once a week
Only one day
At one time

You won't say hello to me
At least I told you first
You won't ask how am I
At least I asked you first

Do I looked too gorgeous
Until you can't stand to be next to me
Do I too valueable
Until you think you can't have me easily

Oh yeah,
You're not worth it
I wasn't made for you by God

In life
I know I'm going to meet some jerks
It starts with you
And maybe another jerks
Another one
Another one

It won't stop
Until I found a man
For me
Who worth it

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Gatot = Gagal Total

2009-08-15T22:59:00.002+07:00

review hari ini

pergi ke pim.
niatnya mau nonton merah putih. kenyataannya : gak jadi.
nyetir mobilnya dhimas.
baru keluar parkir. udah ngelecetin mobil orang.
untung mobil dhimas gapapa.
mau ke gandaria nih.
nyasar.
padahal gak nyasar tuh.
tapi bego tinggal belok kiri.
malah muter balik.
jauh.
arteri pondok indah macet.
nyampe stroberi kafe.
hari sabtu ga ada jumanji.
pinter.
dan tempatnya : GAKENAK!
pulang nih.
mau ke tameng.
gak jadi dong. dhimas gaboleh pulang malem2.
maunya ke mcD duren sawit aja.
gak jadi juga.
nganter febbi pulang deh.
muter-muter rumah febbi jauh bener.
ujung dunia.
akhirnya, sampe rumah.
tapi rasanya kaya ngga abis dari mana-mana

Two Thousand and Eight

2009-08-12T19:19:00.002+07:00

a week passed

and we're keep on silent

we keep our mouth shut

without any word come out

i don't dial your number

i don't write any letter

i lost you

i miss you

but you don't

is that so hard to become a friend?

is that so hard to be your friend?

i guess i used to be your love

so it will be easy to be your friend

but i'm wrong

what a year?

i got a blackberry

i got a notebook

i got braces

but i lost you

what a year?

oh how i miss 2008

Happy 19!

2009-08-10T21:33:00.001+07:00

What date today? It's August 10th
I'm looking to my house
From the entrance door
Ha! I remember when you gave me a birthday mouse

Next, living room
Remember when we used to sit and sleep?
On my white comfy sofa

I'm heading to family room
The tv that we were starring at when new year eve ('09)
Haha I'm smiling

Then I met my dining table
Don't you remember when you ate 4 plates at one time?
I'm wondering how big your tummy is

Finally my little stairs in my garage
I feel butterflies in my stomach
The memory of your kiss
And the warmness of your hug
I kept them in mind

Happy 19!

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Another Break Up

2009-08-10T11:16:00.001+07:00

I hold my breath
I saw you in my dream
You told me that we're back
Just like we used to

Just too far
We can't reach
Just too far
I don't get it

My dream continued
We saw a movie in the cinema
You kissed me gently
And hold my cold hand

Just too far
We can't reach
Just too far
I don't get it

We were heading home
And you whispered me
You wanted to break up
And you asked me to get out

Just too far
We can't reach
Just too far
I don't get it
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Another Drama

2009-08-09T20:48:00.007+07:00

A boy walked into my life and it's you
You asked me out to met at the first time
You said that you have to see me in the eyes
I accepted and we met
I still remember the blue shirt you wore

8 days passed and you asked me that
You told me the it sentence
Three words, eight letters
You told me that and I'm officially yours

We had our laughs and our smile
Even we had our tears but it don't matter
As long that we're together
Stick together on your motorcycle
And we're taking picture on it

Just remember the first kiss that you gave
Short and memorable, I'll keep it in mind
And also every hugs that we shared
When you want to walked away from my home
On my little stairs in my garage

Wake up girl, now we're over
We're not the same like we used to
We don't even laugh again, not even a little smile
I guess you just too tired to see me
You get bored of seeing me for one year and a half

And the last kiss we had was the first kiss that I ever gave
And every time I watched a romantic movie, my stomach hurts
But my heart feels more hurt
I guess we're just like them, in love, fight, and back in love

Now, you're gone so far
I texted you, but you don't want to reply. I know you hate me
But I don't know where's my wrong?
This is not a story
This is a life

Goodbye
Sooner or later you will come to me again
And we'll replay all the things we ever did
And correct the wrong part, boy

Java Rocking Land

2009-08-09T01:51:00.000+07:00

Today was exhausting but amusing! Oh how I love seeing others people on stage. Thank God I have my boy friends and also Sakti. He really is my savior. Sumpah Sakti oke punya! Jempol (Y)
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Bukan Jalan yang Dulu

2009-08-08T05:48:00.001+07:00

Saat mata memandang keluar jedela.
Rekaman kita mulai berjalan.
Disitu kamu berkata.
Kita memang sudah sejalan.
Ingin aku tak percaya.
Memang kita tak sejalan.
Hingga malam aku terjaga.
Melongok keluar bertemu bulan.
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Fake

2009-08-07T21:07:00.001+07:00

We got no vibe
From the first time we met
I tried to fit in
But it's just too hard

You were nice
You were care
But you don't love
You just stare
But you don't love
You just play

We tried so hard
I like you I don't deny
But to love you
It's just a different game

You were nice
You were care
But you don't love
You just stare
But you don't love
You just play

I got you when I need
I sleep with your smell
But we're just loner
We stand by each
I'm waving goodbye
I'm welcoming a new love :)
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SLEEPYHEAD

2009-08-02T15:55:00.001+07:00

Ngepost dari hp lagi, karena iseng. Eh masa ya, gue kan abis nonton Public Enemies, and you know what? Gue ketiduran aja gitu dari tengah film sampe mau abis. 10 menit sebelum filmnya abis lah. Sadis kan? Btw, I really want to watch Up! Udah deh, see ya
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..UI

2009-07-31T20:26:00.000+07:00

Alwin masuk UI tekhnik komputer. Gue speechless aja gitu

Bete

2009-07-29T11:25:00.000+07:00

How sad, I still can't get over him after 2 months. I really have to get over him. He used to be so kind, nice, sweet, and care. But now, he's turning to be a selfish one. Ganjen pula. And he's also rude.

Ah shit. Mati kek lu buruan
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TEST

2009-07-29T09:30:00.000+07:00

Nyoba posting lewat e-mail. Bisa ga ya.....
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DELETE

2009-07-28T19:42:00.002+07:00

Alwin harus bener-bener dihapus dari kehidupan gue. Oke. Dadah. Be kind dong win. At least if you still call me 'friend'. Ga sopan banget sih, udah ga nepatin janji, trs ngasih bukunya ga sopan. Ah tau dah. Daaah alwin. Semoga cepet dapet pacar baru ya yang bohay kaya aura kasih tapi ga ada otaknya.

..GOHB!

2009-07-26T15:33:00.000+07:00

created by : me

..YIPEE

2009-07-26T13:15:00.002+07:00

Yesterday was like AAAAAAAAAAAHHHH. Met my friends and met Alwin of course. He dropped me at Adin's house after the show. THANKS GOD! :D can't stop smiling and got a fantastic dream too :D

..FAKE

2009-07-20T14:31:00.003+07:00

I got this problem. The biggest one for my entire life. Break up. I know, it's been more than a month. But, I just don't feel this is right. I know he doesn't love me. But, still. It's hard to accept. When I was a bit younger, it's okay to accept that the one that I love, does not love me in return. Because we don't have any serious relationship before. But, this just different. He promised me a lot and he did not keep his promises. Sad :'(

Aduh, rasanya pengen gue tagihin semua janjinya di depan mukanya. But I don't have a strenght to. What'd I do then?

He told me reasons, and I just can't stand to hear it. Cause they're all just too fake.

Nyesel banget ngeliat foto-foto di facebook :(